My Boy, My Life

2007-12-25T18:35:00.001+08:00

I've tons to upload... okokay.

i spent close to 200$ for xmas pressies!
>.< i still haven finish buyin... =/

bot uncle vincent a armani xchange polo tee... 135$. it was on 50%...
bot DH & JH both a polo tee each and toiletries.

i received a four leave clover accessory frm JH.

and durin my 3hr break i had to like buy all e presents & mitmy pri sch best fren patricia! shes much taller now. and her voice is diff, sweeter & she is gorgeous.
we din tk any pics thou. we'll mit up agn.

had sushi teh... both of us eat until 60$
the food was gd! damn. esp the dessert... ahhh.

work wasnt really busy so we were goofing ard.. took pics wit zheng tao's cam.
shall upload dose a lil later. took sme usin my cam.

and we ate frm the buffet! had oyster,lobster,champange,redwine..
i was still full frm my heavy lunch so i din eat much... i brot hm beef as well!
intend to give it to my uncle for xmas(:

so here's some pics frm my cam:

*a v late bd present i received.. frm Dh....(: heard it was exp=/

Zhengtao... funny guy.

DH & chef antonio..

Noel & chef antonio..

cherwee *sister*, raymond, zheng tao. *bac of kitchen..

danghao. me. cherwee. *im closin my eyes><

the super messy chiller.

me & seh kok korkor/uncle. hahahahhaa. stupid face.

red wine anyone?

i cud go bac abit earlier.. so i went to M9 chinese kitchen..

Jianyu the steward...

Jimmy.. and the nice seafd...

Keant...

ah hen!

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left hyatt at 11.. foong acc me till 12 befre gg bac so we hanged out in orchard.

2007-12-18T23:28:00.000+08:00

here to update on my birthday's post(:

so the nite befre my bd. kena conned by my exclassmate alex...

yaoxian drove his car and along w desmond n alex, we went geylang for supper.
we had porridge.. frog leg one. not bad. spicy.
afterwhich we had a tour ard geylang in yaoxians car befre he drove me bac.
thanks!

had bd wishes frm lots of frends.. thank u all of u for rmbering!(:

the first present i received was frm yelena, a MAC golden colour eyeliner.
frm ah heng, lunch treat at crystal jade & ice cream at sme shop.
on 13, photoframe n choc frm Jimmy.
then i had a DKNY perfume *be delicious* frm kenny.

on my birthday, had to work. >.<
received lots of bd wishes.

had an angbao frm uncle vincent, he act gave me $100!
frm william, a box of chocolates. yummy(:
frm foong, a pair of dangling earrings.
frm ah hen some bunny ornament.

frm andi, a necklace frm bits n pieces. * he act cme n look for me in the kitchen(:

i love all my presents. thank u all sincerely.(:

met kenny... he then went to collect the cake. he bot it frm Hyatt,M9.
proceded to mit vanessa & we headed down to cine's "hip diners" to wait for weiqi.

frm kenny & weiqi, i got this lovely bd cake... and a perfume *provocative women" frm elizabeth arden.

frm left, weiqi. vanessa. I. kenny.

my face looks so chubby in most pics. think cos its e time of the mth......
grrr.

making a wish... my bestie look happier then me. hehe.

(;(;

we had the cake befre 12.. so we cut it first n ask the waiter to put in bac in e fridge... vanessa tot the indian waiter was cute. haha.
u guys can check it out he works der.. hip diners at cine. wahahaha.

we had some food n had our cake last. it was v nice! so rich n chocolately...
but one cannot hv too much. haha. so it was almost juz rite lah. the cake wasnt too big(:

closer as ever. sisters.

we planned to go sing~~~ but the prices & timing wasnt rte. so we decided to play pool instd.
aft a couple of rounds.. duno wad happened to us took us so long to end one game:s

we tot we'll let the guys have a few mre rounds. so we took sme pics while waiting.

my beautiful fren(:

small eyes.. tts y we're best frens. wahahaha.

weiqi ...

kenny ...

myself. hehehe.

we caught "warlords" at 4.05am.
it was errrr quite boring a show to watch at tt time. vans n kenny fell aslp!
i was tryin hard. so i din. but nearly=/

cabbed hm afterwards w vans & reached hm at 7 in e morn...

haha. it was an enjoyable outing.. love u guys for being der & celebrating it w me(:(:(:

2007-12-04T00:48:00.000+08:00

haven been online for dayss. shall do a summarisation.

went JB last fri *** ****

dotes on me alot.
had the nice curry fish head at JB.
headed to city square aftwards.
shopped. he got me this:

u can write wadever u wan on the rice grain. we had our names written n tts his name.
in chi. my cam too lousy cant focus. words too small.

caught the movie: the kingdom.
dint buy anything thou. haha.
really enjoyed my trip. was well taken care of. the chats were so interestingly funny..
thanks for all the treats. (:

and he was gg bac to Ipoh for 10days. looking forward to u coming bac!
really appreciate tt u call me frm there everyday.
u're special... so dear to me.

on sat aft work, met kennychew!
so happy to c him cos i haven met him for almost 2 mths.
so hungry we had a light meal at the hip smtg restaurant on lvl 1 of cine.
caught HITMAN and had supper afterwards.. pics are w him.
think i nid to wait v long. haha. cos we're both bz.
heres the onli pics i hv in my ph.

he's still gd looking(:

small eyes people/cute people.

damn i cant really rmb wads happened. hmmmm.
i wana thanks kennylooi for lookin aft me in SK. tytytyty.
i know u sayang me the most & i appreciate tt.

i hope vanessa enjoyed n bd & yelena's one is comin.. all the best to these 2 gorgeous girls.(:

i hate split shifts i haven seen nik.. ahh i so so wana bring him out.
look so many pics.. tken on the "morning" wen i came bac hm aft meetin kenny.
raech hm abt 5am. we were playing. (:

making u smile every single moment is a must!
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supercute!
oh n i juz dug out some old pics. pics of his father when his father was a baby.
when im free i'll upload e pics. v interesting(:
now the candid shots...

he kisses me!

*single eyelids can be mezmerising too. cos i've been told;)

2007-11-29T12:53:00.000+08:00

damn girl(;

2007-11-25T00:44:00.000+08:00

I FELL SICK. SUFFERING.
I SO HATE U.

2007-11-17T02:50:00.000+08:00

Finally im here to update agn(:

I bot a new desktop! weee. its the lcd kind which i wanted longg ago.
haha. nowadays i think everyones hse uses a lcd monitor.
i bot it w my savings! contented. hehehe. :)

sme pics i tk w my lousy pda ph...

in straitskitchen chef u..

normal chef u. haha. yeah i love to tk pics(:

the late nite suppers i get frm my colleages. fattening but v yummy!

smetyms when im free, i bring nik to the playgrd...

n pics of myself...

i like this. chubby.

oh ive been eating lots of japanese food nowadays, at least twice a wk!

then ther was the grand hyatt sg family day at the bird park.
my family went wit me. sme pics at the park.

*on e way der on the car
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niks cheeky face

hes tall yeah.

my sister, Nur' Lin

He isnt afraid of falling. isnt afraid od anything! mkes me wori.

Mummy & nik.

i hardly got to spend time w nik tis wk as im workin split shifts.
like 1030am-230pm BREAK---- 7pm -11pm. onli off day n fri & sun i cud see him..

sme precious time spent at hm tgt...

spot the big ears. n pimple.

i spend a nice cozy fri morn at a frens place. nice living rm area eh?
i had nice foods n desserts too(:

m heres a pic of myself! * last one.
i nid to lose some wt so i can look beta in this. i wana wear smtg nice for my 18th bd, who wana celebrate it wit me???

this is my chinafrd frm petes place, dong hua. i call him dong gua(:

juz wana say.. my attachments great, colleages all nice.
willing to teach, friendly. i made alot of new frds n im really happi.
ders elder bros out der lookin out for me...tkin aft me. uncles, sisters as well.
i juz wan more time w nik. hes so damn adorable day by day.

im contented. thanks god. i shuden ask for more.(:

i miss vanessa... hope we gt to mit up soon yah?
*christmas is comin up.. gona send some xmas cards out...
(:
im happy to go to work. cos i can see u. but u'll nv know hw i feel towards u.
cos i will not let it show. im contented juz seeing ur smile.(:

2007-11-08T19:49:00.000+08:00

i went for dinner at TianTian seafd restaurant ytd! *somewher in outram area.

there was belinda, chef lee & his wife, chef ouyang, william, poh, cindy, ken, jason & i.
chef jay & chef bryan came to join us ltr. their our hotel's exec chefs.

we ate like soooo much!

1. fried ee mian
2. garlic bamboo clams
3. fried you tiao w stuffing
4. chilli kangkong
5. garlic kai lan
6. steamed fish *duno wad fish but nice* w sauce
7. fried tou fu w sauce
8. frog legs in gong bao zi ding sauce
9. steamed frog legs w chicken essence
10. oatmeal prawns
11.chilli crabs w mantou
12. ice longans!

maybe der is more but i cnt rmb.

we drank crysanthemum tea. i had chardonnay(white wine) and shiraz(red)
i love the dinner. thank u everyone. it was a lovely nite.

but i was quiet most of the time..cos all not my age, like 30-50+ yrs old.
duno if i can upload the pics cos belinda gona wash it out.. n ive no scanner):

todays deepavali.

HAPPY DEEPAVALI! to dose who celebrate this festival(:
i spent my whole day at home w nik.. but still feeling lonely. like smtg is not right.

i wana find a perfect husband. i dont care if he is ugly or wad.
juz a good one.
ders a few guys in hyatt tt fancy me. but.. not for me.

i cant help feelin lonely. maybe its beta if i work & work & work to forget everything.

2007-10-21T22:39:00.000+08:00

VEXED.

Ive TOO MANY problems on my mind...

way too many.. so many probs tt stress me out & make me fall sick.
again. and again.

Im suffering..

2007-10-16T23:47:00.003+08:00

* i need nik's bd pics to blog abt his bd. still with kenny.
Faster send me k if u see me on9!

Work is stressful. boring. tiring.

i dont wan any more unhappiness. already enuf as work is like 3/4 of my life.

i miss nik. i wana spend more time with nik.
oh yahh hes got the hand foot & mouth disease.
dont wori guys its not tt bad. but he is still sick. =/
poor baby. mummy will sayng sayng u everynite when i cme bac frm work.

i dont get it, i dont even mit my bf often yet we juz met today & we argued. many times.
wth. sigh.

wooooo off on thurs n i end early tml! then fri i start late. woooooo.
enjoying time.(:

2007-10-06T23:51:00.000+08:00

on thurs nite. i brot nik to KFC for dinner.
cutie nik eating choco pocky.XD

craving for ice cream tis week! (:

today my shift was frm 3pm-11pm.
but chef nelson let me go at 9+ can! plus he asked e guys to cook me smtg..

i got...
this nice spicy tomato based pasta (penne) w prawns & scallops! damn nice(:

and, we finally got our name tags! my hp cam is sucky.):

my chef v nice. always let me off early.
tml will be my last day at Petes):

next wk im workin split shifts for e whole wk!!

everyone like my new blogskin?
I lOVE IT! Thanks B.Y.O.B. (:

* i miss u alot. but i duno how.....

2007-10-04T16:53:00.000+08:00

my off's today..
had planned to go out for a movie b4 gg to fetch nik but was too tired so i wk up at 12nn.
had lunch, usu msn, sleep like a PIG till 4+.
got ready n went to fetch nik. damn tired can.

kenny called maybe wanted to ask me for lunch but anyway i wasnt in town. sorri!
sunday k?

hmm yx had his off today too he was sayin..
"our job v lonely leh.. i think someday we will have mental prob"

cos some kitchen u juz dont talk to anyone n kip doin ur stuffs. no one eat wit u oso.
i mean for his kitchen la.

anyway our time is damn limited.. esp split shift. u waste ur time away...
u go hm late. alone. u feel tired. u dont go out.
u rest at home alone..
isnt tt sad?

but ive used to it.. so im fine.

2007-10-03T23:46:00.000+08:00

wow. very tiring two days. but i had fun @ work.
morning time, cher wee bro taught me everything on e pizza side.
thanks.

had lunch w classmtes @ spices. met em there. today got FREE icecream! woah!!!

service time was alrte,hlp out here n der.
had a LONGGG chat w chef roberto. hahaha. abt.. hotel line.
he made nice coffee for us in e morn.

break time went to slack ard... raymond made me a nice sandwich! & ice tea.
he made me v nice dinner on tues nite oso. isnt he a nice guy? honest n hardwking too..
we had this beef sandwich. he claims it to be subway cos we chose all e ingredients n eat fresh!

eating at our bar counter. we had mixed salad aftwhich...

eat n eat.
went to sleeping rm. pitch dark. airconed. aftwhich went upstairs.
found sm frds n chat, wnt bac to work early.

had abit of watermelon. a sip of orange juice.
keep disturbing dong hua * chinaguy* v funny. and talk to uncle willie. he oso v fun person.

exec chef antonio taught me how to mk ravioli. he is nice la.

in fact, i really love everyone at Pete's they're nice & frdly.
a wonderful experience.

for dinner, i made myself a salad.
raymond made some spinach ravioli & beef tortelli for us to share.
cher wee made avocado milk w honey for us to drink.

omg. i eat until wana burst. hahahah.

heres sm pics of my working environment this wk! <3!!

e back door, whr e staff goes in & out.

heres e oven we use to make our pizza.

some other pics of e hot side n restaurant..

service staff all v nice to me also! know my name already.
the stewarding hor. for afternn shift. looks abit like jay leh. hahahahaa. wooo.

my happy 2 year old son(:

mummy muackkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk u. cuutie!

nowadays i wear shorts(:

im suppose to blog abt nik's bd.. but im too tired n bz nwadays.
will blog it all soon!
so i guess i wun blog so much in future. meaning like in detailed n pics n all.
only when im free. im free now cos my OFF is tml! DAMN precious. i muz think carefully wad i wana spend my time on.

i had a great day at work. they kip askin me go hm earlier at 9+.
but i din wan. i donwana go bac w nth to do.
felt damn emo while walkin to mrt in e dark dark sky.
i cried. i cried on e mrt. i cried on e bus. i cried on e way home.
i hate u.

2007-09-26T21:42:00.000+08:00

OHHHH MY GODD.

WE DRANK TILL.....
ONE VOMIT.
TWO CANNOT WALK PROPERLY.

3 of us shared a bottle of whiskey.
we played guessing games. weiqi keep winnin! kenny n i cant tk it.
so were practically swaying here n there. i cant even go toilet....i keep falling back.
but at least i knew wad im doing. im gd for a beginner. hahaha.

thanks for sending me home.

shall upload the pics asap!

2007-09-25T22:28:00.000+08:00

Today, i woke up super late. like 12.
Damn tired.

Shatec called and said i wud have to see the CE. becos of the changing of hotel matter.
wth lor. give him an explaination. im expecting lots of nagging n lecturing.
friday, 3pm. still muz go bac to sch? FUCK. argh.

i ate alot alot and drank some.
yes i like alcohol. i LIKE. and im NOT addicted so dont worry(:

tried chivas, barcardi*white*. also absolut pear. notbad((:

i dint drink it straight la. mix with coke.

aft alil bit, went to do driving. lol.

driving stimulator. testdrive. nice!

had chocolates wit drinks. nice!

had lots of food. maybe becos im unhappy, i can eat more.

Love my face.

i bot like tons of titbits, sweets, what-nots frm some shop, gona pack into goody bags.!
had fun doing it.
distributing to nik's classmates on his bd! which is this thurs(:
i'll celebrate wit u baby. its just me and u.

i

weds. gg out w weiqi & kenny. like a last gathering thing. we'll drink n sing n eat.

whiskey maybe?

im eating too much nowadays. =/

2007-09-22T17:06:00.000+08:00

Weee! Exams are finally over.
I think i shud be able to make it. except for 1 or 2 subjects.

I went out alot this wk..

last fri was nelson's bd. so we had dinner at gallery hotel. pics are at my frdster.
lazy to upload here too.
i had this china blue drink. it was nice(:
-grapefruit juice w lychee flavoured liquor. and some blue thing?

During my exams, my bf wud mk the effort to get up earli, send me to sch.
wait for me to finish my paper and off we go(:
usu to his hse or to hv lunch n etc. he got ALOT of movies at hm to watch!!! *jealous*
i had a really great and nice wk.

once we argued so badly. and i felt bad aft tt. so i went to get a perfume to surprise him!
Issey Miyake. This brands perfume v long lasting n strong one(:

on fri, we went to have thai food for dinner. & a small bottle of whiskey. V nice food & drinks.
Headed to Eski bar aft tt. Had a whiskey n whiskey sour.. baby had whiskey too & stout.
very fun cos was like damn cold and we were throwin ice at each other...
again, pics uploaded at frdster.. now i v sleepy....
so very lazy.. gg to tk a nap now!

miss my baby.

Nik's bd is coming sooooooooooonnnnnnnnnnnnnnn!

2007-09-08T19:12:00.000+08:00

the last post. haha. abit emo.. cause i cuden sleep.
was bloggin at like 5am.

anyway, i've decided. i wana migrate in the future.
aft i hv enuf money and aft getting married wit my bf.
i wan to buy a house. most prob i wana migrate to aust.

was thinking of New Zealand but the weather is much colder there.
M afraid i wun be able to adapt.
so, a cty tt is near & the cost of living is not as high as compared to other euro cty wud be
AUSTRALIA(:

i wana buy a 2 or 3 storey HOUSE.
decorate my nice home with my family & all.
get a job, prob still as a chef, in some well known restauarant.
until i earn enuf, then sty at home & tend the hse.

hehehe. nice plans.
i will work hard for it!!!

i wana buy alot of things. but i dont have much money.
i shuden be spendin my money like tt. i still got nik.

BUT i wana buy nice clothes..
SO i can dress well to go out wit my bf & baby..
i think i wud look much beta with nice clothes. not Tshirts..

i cant stand it when people tt are obviously not fat say they lOOk fat in pictures..
if u think u look fat then why u still put?

and how can they be fat when some times even i myself, ppl say not fat and im meatier then em??

anyway,i believe having a well rounded body is the best.
for girls, u have the front and the back. a shapely waist and decent face.
like ME! (:
i cant believe i hv a son tts 2, while im not yet 18.
and i still look so gd. hehehe.

i miss my bf,this wk end cnt mit.. cos too bz.
wad to get for his BD?? i duno..

Oh bot a black shorts, black skirt. and a top frm dorothy perkins.
and this purple silk top frm zara.
i wan more clothes.............................

2007-09-06T01:40:00.000+08:00

Its 2am now. . i cant seem to sleep.

Its ok. i wun be gg school for good. (:

2007-09-04T21:31:00.000+08:00

i really LOVE chocolates. i had some
:famous amos cookies, crunch, choco biscuit, kinda breuno today.
in fact, i have chocolate every single day.
(:

i watched a movie today alone, its 1408.
its like the stupid-est movie i ever watched. i had no choice. the time slots.....
i wana catch No Reservations!!!

i nid to be showered with lotsa love,care & concern....

i've gt sudden craving for a Ribeye steak ;)

2007-08-28T19:36:00.000+08:00

NIK'

His mummy'

OMG today i had a FUCKING HELL of a stomach ache & fever.
ITs so bad.): temperatures really high & keep gg to the toilet.
and i had nobody with me. be it sms or etc. nobody.

my fren was also saying he himself scare no time when attachment starts. and hes single.

so can someone feel me? Not just for myself. i hv to hv time for my baby.
already no time.. how can i be so greedy to hv a bf as well?

unless my bf is vv understanding. which is rare. anyway i donwana talk abt affairs of the heart.

im sick. like again. why? is it becos im too stressed n too tired so i get sick v easily?
i practically lied on my bed frm 10am-6pm today just sleeping.

caught secret last wk with my bestie.

i wana watch:
no reservations.
anyone?

First tym using liquid eyeliner.

i wana recover so badly.
i wana be able to live my live to the fullest.
i miss you.
not the now you. the old you.

2007-08-09T10:21:00.000+08:00

so now. we're both trying not to argue over stupid things.

jus wana be happy.loving & peaceful. so far we're doin fine..
i really hate complicated r/s so i will definately try my best now.

so his ex kept bothering him. i msged her in frdster, askin her nicely nt to disturb him.
know wad i got?

:
Little gal

If you have GUTS and you are pretty aware of your current relationship status with aungye , get yourself and aungye to meet me and talk to me over this.

Anyway I hve already asked Aungye to talk to you and handle your desperation. If this is still not clear to you, you are welcome to meet me personally with Aungye any time.

Get on with your life little girl. You are still young to pursue your wishes. Another one who doesn't know about the world yet :)

Aynway Stop harressing me and saying all these rubbish to me. Don't make me laugh at you again.

Good luck

omg! so scacastic. so of cos i replied her.

mine was wayyy long. enuf to make anyone cry. hahaha. some quotes frm my replies
: ma'am, u're already old enuf to be my mother.
: thanks for remindin me of my youth. *she TEN yrs older than me.
: why nid i have GUTS to mit u? u muz be really hideous or scary in person eh?
: we're just a harmless loving couple(:
: are u trying to imply tt u are old and cant get over ur ex whose somebody else's already?
: feel free to see me & ye in our lil sweet "desperation" if tts wad u call it(:
: i wish i cud tell u the same to u tt You are still young to pursue your wishes yadayada but it'll just be lies.
: go find someone else's boyfriend, run along now! shoo!

tts all i cud rmb. hahaha. so SHIOK.
so wad if u're 28 and seen the world?? u think im like so stupid?
im sure my english can match up to ur standards n im only EIGTHTEEN!
its not cos i speak eng my entire life. i learn chinese too and both my languages are gd.(:

now i'll c wad she replies. and hahaha. im gg to make her cry. and make her life miserable.
i bear grudes. dont offend me yah ;)

i nid to buy a curler!!!! and alot of things. i nid to go shopping. i wan to buy alot of things.
and i wan my baby to go with me....

2007-08-07T23:56:00.000+08:00

I M SO FREAKING TIRED. of a complicating relationship.

I just wana cry. becos it hurts damn bad.

Im really tired. tired. tired.

2007-08-06T23:57:00.000+08:00

before i sleep. a smile for u.

2007-08-06T00:10:00.000+08:00

i am not going to school on monday.
becos i dont feel like it.

no mc. waste money only. 1 dp only wad. i got 9 already.

and if so, maybe i just donwana go the whole week..

tis is the first tym i pontank sch in this sem.

i'll just spend my days alone.
already planned.

2007-08-05T16:27:00.001+08:00

what a nice sunday.

nobody actually msged me today.
despite the fact im a local here whr all my frds are here. hmm.

im sure his hp is full of sms & calls of ppl asking him out.
okok dont care.

hmm. gona get my new phone in end of sep, wen my contract expires.
wud really wan a white hp but... so lil white phones ard.
decided to get N73 Music version lo, same as chris. but they only have black.

nvm, my car in future wud be white no matter wad car it is.

heres me aft the interview. very tired already.

a pic with mg. look at my smile. so reluctant. hahaha.

my handsome lil boy. im proud of myself...

kenny & yelena commented tt he looks gd in tt. haha. shud c the "live" him.
suuper! irresistable!

hmm. he is abit sick nowadays. last nite like 3am he vomited all on the bed.
and me, being SUPER sleepy, suddenly came awke.. cos so much.
clean the bed & him..

then wanted to slp alredy he still kept crying.
and the vomit smell.. wash already still there. so we both dint sleep well.

nvm, have nth to do today. so i can slp..
yes he's right.. if u are unhappy, dont be with him. find a beta guy..

but then, do i need a guy?

see how. my mood is always weird. affairs of the hearts is so complicating.

2007-08-02T22:14:00.000+08:00

my first half of the day was kinda bad.

but ltr on was so gd! gd news.
got two interview calls, one frm le meridien. one carlton hotel.

baby also got his new rented apartment alredy, at redhill area.
so happy for him. really. heard tt its v nice. muz go visit once he moves in(:

and! nik's childcare fees reduced by another 20dollars. cool!
i knw wad to buy for his bd le, maybe a tricycle(:

i jus cuden concentrate on findin info on the hotel but waitin for his call..
and he did(:

mmmmuacckkkkkks

2007-07-28T20:34:00.000+08:00

here is my second post for today.

my mum doesnt love me.
nor does she love my son.

she shouts at nik when he misbehaves only a little! with that kind of look,
tt tone, that voice. she doesnt love nik!
she nv looks aft him, nv plays with him.

she doesnt love me.
she went out wit her OWN family. step sis & dad.
i cant go out, it was raining.
she went out the WHOLE day and she never buy anything for me to EAT.
thanks mummy. for NEVER SHOWING me love at all for the past 18 yrs.

THIS GREATLY affects my life becos u are my only family then and i DON FEEL ANY LOVE FRM U.

my childhood memories, sadly. i DONT RMB A SINGLE THING.
must have SUCKED.

which is why i expect so much love from my bf.
becos i dont get any love. like family, kin love.
maybe they do love me so much. but i expect more more more becos im so stressed.
nt loved. SO VERY LONELY.

i cant feel happy no matter wad. why? how?
i feel like dying.
i cant be happy. how can i help myself?

i know ppl are all very worried abt me. BUT I REALLY DUNO WHY.

IM SUPER DEPRESSED. dont wish to survive anymore.

2007-07-25T21:24:00.000+08:00

china girls so cute?
whatever(:

im under too much stress la. ppl cant c it.
but i can feel it. and chris knows me best, he knows im really stress.
severe emotional stress. well it caused my SHINGLES u know!

i got shingles! wth. SICK AGAIN!
its like some kind of same virus like chix pox. >.<
i have like small yucky blisters growin on my skin which is DAMN pain. ='(
gona tk 1-2wks to recover.. hmmm.

ok nid to prepare my resume to send to hotel already.
but m lazy. which hotel shud i go? prob gg to choose the same one as my brothers.

i trimmed my brows today n m so happy! thou its not much of a diff its def neater!
some pics. hehe.

natural. no make up ok! still cute.
my single eyelids<3!

i developed alot of pics frm my digi cam. abt 60+.
gg to give baby a surprise ltr. and givin kenny & zm their pics i dev of them.

i realised i took a lot of pics of nik but not with him.
hai, who can help us take? thus, family photos. which is only me & him hv so lil only..

shopped alot at cold storage for food(:

dear best friend. ive only few more months with u.
im really gg to cherish it. becos u are very impt.u helped me so much.
any requests u wan, do tell me. dont wori. tk care ya?

as for love. i really duno.
i don like complicated r/s. it seems ok. but i dont feel right.

i love babies. i love nik.
i cant wait to start a family with my man & have his kid.

none bullies me. only nik! until very jialat oso!

2007-07-22T10:30:00.000+08:00

These are so pretty.
when wud it be my day? im sure i wud look so beautiful(:

i wud marry u if u truly love me.

2007-07-20T22:05:00.000+08:00

i will NOT be with people tt do NOT tell the truth.
as long as i know tt u're hiding smtg. i wun change my mind.
i know there are things which im not told of.

ok so today sch ended really early. like 1,1+
last min plan to go orchard wit kenny & chris.
cuden tk the MRT. dint have service! so we took bus 77.

the ride was longgg and all of us felt giddy,wana puke.
reached cineleisure at 3+,bot ticks for harry potter @ 4.10.
had lunch at pasta mania. we shared a pasta & pizza. very nice but so damn full!

chris bot cookies @ famous amos & kenny bot some kachang puteh the sugar peanuts. NICE!
while gg to the cinema spotted this huge blue creature which i found so cute(:
its got some bulging parts on the chest.

the movie was cool.
idk why ppl say its not nice. aftermovie went walking ard orchard befre we tk LONG bus ride hm.
felt sick agn.

when i reached hm, nik was so happee! kip clappin his hands sayin "yeah!"
i felt so loved.

i donwana do anything this wkend.
i dont wish to talk to anybody.
i feel like being alone. i wana walk the streets at night alone.
i wana just sit at places alone.
i wana hear the sea sing. walk along beaches. sit & watch cars go by.

sms & calls wud not be entertained.

byebye...

2007-07-19T21:45:00.000+08:00

FUCKING FUCKED UP DAY.

DON WISH TO EVEN MENTION A SINGLE FUCK ABT WAD FUCKING HAPPENED.
THIS IS WHEN U REALLY SEE LIYIN GETTIN ANGRY.

tell friends they dont understd.

best friend disappeared. wana spend time with him, always either nv reply, nv talk much.
or choose the wrong friend but i dont really care becos i know in this world noone can really be trusted.

i love my baby.
i love my female best friends. vans & yillie.

im looking at life now in a different perspective.
im gonna change, dont fucking care wad ppl think.

my love is for my baby, my besties.
for myself.

the world is selfish.

2007-07-16T21:15:00.000+08:00

right now, im feeling severe pain.
feel sick.
im scared..

i wana cry.

2007-07-08T22:56:00.000+08:00

This is gona be it.

mitsubishi lancer evolution?
white is hot.
my family is gona be hot. woo. (:

only prob is. dont think they have the model i wan by then. F***!

2007-07-05T02:46:00.000+08:00

So after my EC, i had 2 wks of hols.
COOL. we rarely have long hols like tt.

I spent my 2wks hols gg out almost everyday. mk the best out of it(:

For my first wk.
I went to the zoo one of the days with chris.
So here's some pics.

i cuden wait to start tkin pics. haha. Outside of the zoo.

The car looks classic.

cute otters.

The best pic i captured of Inuka the polar bear.

so very short. 1.6, bearly above the 1.5mark):

rhinos

a pic i tk while out in the sun.

idk wad animal this is

The bird tt cant fly but run sooo fast.

Zebra

This is soo cute, and the kids were tryin to tk a pic of it too

king of the animals, the lion!

they are so tall & prettyy!

not bad.

i bot this fan @ sentosa

tiny snake

are they sleeping?

its abit dark

Went out wit a classmate today. so.

Butterfly

that cute thing.

on the tram on the way back.

SMILE!

do a grass statue of me pls!

did not go to children's world cos... i was feelin too sleepy. =x
had ben & jerry's ice cream aftwhich. wow! YUM!

my best frd chris.

after zoo went AMK hub for pepperlunch.
i fell aslp while on the bus.

Then there was one day i went out with ojer, watched surf's up @ cathay cineplex.
had b&j ice cream agn!

Nasi Lemak @ marina sq

One day i caught the movie Fantastic 4 w weiqi @ bugis.
He was nice enuf to fetch me frm pasir ris and sent me back there aft tt.
Had yong tau foo for lunch.
the food at the food court all v nice one(:

another day i went out with qayyum.
went to cityhall. had lunch @ Macs. Double cheeseburger meal agn.
jus so addicted to it. die la so fattening. sighs.

walked ard aft that. shopshop. try try clothes.
i tried a few frm topshop. i like this jumper but it dont really have my size. :'(

ok cant really rmb who else i went out with.
realised all my friends are guys. prob due to my course.
nvm i still have my dearest vans & yelena. enuf for me.

okkk so i watched transformers. at tm.
nimesh,ahmed & chris. the movie was damn cool.
after tt met qayyum at chris void deck.
went for dinner then went bac home.

i watched die hard 4 at vivo with chris.
the movie v nice!
bot my shoes frm zara, $60.
a top from mango, $9.

and chocos frm candy empire

went to try a black dress but i dint buy it. cos i think my arms are too flabby.(:

honeydew frappe. tastes abit like medicine? but its alrte.

VERY happy cause i've watched all the movies i wana watch atm.

Friday i went to nimesh house.
i wish it was my hse...

some secret i was tryin to find out frm the labtop

i had to make his bed cos i messed it up :(

DONT THINK DIRTY AH NTH HAPPENED. Chris was there too.

They were fighting with the soccer ball.

after we left his hse went to parkway parade to hv lunch, damn hungry.
abit 15mins walk frm his hse. but my heels were killing!

here nimesh tk a pic of us but we were tkin a pic usin chris's hp.

nimesh eating his pizza..

as for nik, nowadays i hear him say the alphabet W.
and he knows how to sing "twinkle twinkle little star"
but with his own words. so cutte can! XD
i really enjoy spendin time with him. i love his company. my baby.

nik clapping hands..

munching on his onion ring.

so on after my birthday, i've decided to get my driving license.
ahh. still got abt 5mths to my bd. argh.

cos u know why?...

IF I PASS, I GET A FREE CAR!

From one of my frds, thank u thank u.
his budget is 100K but i will be getting a red plate la.
cant afford a normal one.

im thinking of a evo. white one. wad do u guys think?
IM SOO EXCITED!

FIRST person i wud drive is baby nik.
followed by "him" the guy who bot me my car.
then my female friends, vanessa & yelena.

then my other frds whoever that wans a ride.

wow. its gona be so hot.

and i can feel my life is changing for the beta. (:
thank u.

2007-07-04T11:05:00.001+08:00

Woooooooo~
So glad my practical exam is over!
I got salmon, suppose to b pretty ez eh? suppose to present at 4 i tot 430.
In the end just whack, think my presentation looks like shit dont even dare to tk a pic of it.
But the judge thinks its gd? Really smtg is wrong.
Everyone was like wa whose number 10. hahahaha. mine. wayyyy to simple.
Just hope i can pass. Donwan to retake!!!

Not much pictures to post thou...
Went shopping. bot a few stuffs.
My first sunglasses! *Topshop.

Here's me with my baby sleeping in my arms. on the bus.

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Here's nimesh, he's been hanging out with us these few days.
*He jus shaved his head. (:

ohoh. i got another guinea pig. a male one oso.
cos it was soo cute & they dint have females. tsktsk.

anyway m down with rashes agn, spread it to nik this time too.
its so irritating.

todays is weds,im gg out for awhile ltr..
only left thurs.fri.
weekends is to go out with nik.
ahhhh so many things to do, so little time.

sigh. i really feel sick nowadays. :'(

2007-07-01T22:52:00.000+08:00

I seriously dont know wad is wrong with me.

I had this HORRIBLE headache. now my rashes are coming bac.

im like sick everywhr. i nid to go c alot of docs n go to hospitals for checks.

IM SO SICK OF GETTING SICK. I CANT TAKE IT ANYMORE.

and i've NO MONEY!!! *thank u. i really thank u. if not i wuden have survived these few days.

im so damn stressed. i really dont wan anymore stress.

im NOT happy......................

i need a HUG. sighs.

2007-06-26T22:15:00.000+08:00

Yo, im back! haha.
was so bz last wk. with EC.
i was garde manger doin appetiziers and also part of the marketing team.(:
the whole ec experience was FUN for me.
we sold quite alot & our grp ppl bonded becos of this ec.
im so glad i have my friends with me to go thru this project tgt.
tgt, we made it a success! (:
love ya guys.

pictures time!
DURING EC, my grp members:

josh.ahmed.edil.

see me der preparin e appetiziers? hehe.

the pics r frm kennys digi cam so we'll be c-ing alot of him.
kenny & ziming. *marketing*

kenny & ahmed*saucier*.

kenny & mingguang*gardemanger*.

kenny & alex*griller*.

kenny & desmond*potager*.

kenny & both potagers,weiqi&des.

nw all the kenny & i pics. *kitchen*

FLASH!

myself w grp members. *kitchen*

one of the ec days was weiqi's bd. hahaha. bd bash! NICE ONE. FUN.

the culprit tt did it to weiqi:

everyday he strains the soup..

The marketing days:

candid.

kenny & i.

myself & zm.

marketing team without chris the boss.

sneak out frm doin our jobs to outside to charcoal. hehehe.

the v cool ppl.

CHARCOAL..!

so heavy!

when chris went bac marketing, i was bac in kitchen.
so here r pics with the service staff too.
andrea & stella.

chris & kenny.

weiqi & kenny in chiller.

other pics of my grp. random.

other pics aft our ec:

Best marketing team.

FINALLY ITS OVER! GRP PICS...
Formal.

informal! yeah!

aft we change, mking plans on hw to celebrate.

decided to go partyworld to sing! and mg brot a bottle of chivas.
so frm charcoal i tk yaoxian's suzuki while the rest walked to the shenton way Partyworld.

13 of us went to celebrate.
myself.kenny.weiqi.desmond.huisheng.yaoxian.joshua.edil.man.ahmed.alex.hairul.mingguang.

in the rm....
we had so MUCH FUN.
its my first tym hangin out so late. we were all damn high frm singing.
jumping. making noises. dancing! woo!

beginning.

we were so high frm using the instruments oso.

hairul spilled some drinks on the floor but weird he was so happily mopping.

look at ahmed grinding! LOL.

Our executive chef for ec, yaoxian.

this next pic is super funny! ahmed dancing sexily! wahaha.

n this, HOT! did my grp becme gays?! LOL.

our fantastic DJ for the day, alex!!!

another gay pic!

ahmed stripped to his boxers.. when he was shaking his bonbon.

all of us shared a bottle of chivas. i drank abit only. (:
after partying, shared cab wit ahmed, reached hm 4+

2handsme dudes...

here's 3.

ahh m tired. will cont tml. pls cme bac to check on the post agn(:!

*my bf is. missing? idk wads he is doing.

2007-06-22T10:47:00.001+08:00

do u miss me?

how come i dont get any calls or emails.

anyway work's been really tiring its the fifth day already.
and i jus wk up, feelin achy everywhr.

these few days have been fine.

caught ocean's 13 wit kenny @ marina sq cinema.
i broke their drink holder la. =/ then he actualli put in his bag but dumped it aftermath.

did marketin on thurs which meant i stood outside with service staff.
pics shall all be uploaded soon as i haven got em.
and everyday is so tiring. wk up go charcoal come bac abt 12+ so tired already.

toooo tired to go into details abt stuff. but i cant wait for my hols next wk!
why arent u here. i wish u were.

and i miss nik so much.

2007-06-20T01:02:00.000+08:00

i really miss u sooooo much.

i love u so much, i wan2 be with u till forever, seriously.

BUT i really dont know.

can i trust u? wud we be happy together.

ah. i duno wad i wan.

*took pics during ec, wud post asap. once i gather the pics.

2007-06-19T01:12:00.000+08:00

FUCK.

I dont really care if i dont have a single cent.
But its NOT just ME.

That is 250$.
THAT was from my savings. For my future.
I DONT HAVE ALOT OF MONEY HELLO!

I HAVE TO SUPPORT A SON HERE!

FUCK IT.
I CURSE THE GUY/GIRL who tk my money. to NEVER BE ABLE TO HAVE KIDS
AND DIE A HORRIBLE DEATH.

U FUCKIN IDIOT MADE ME CRY.

and i m making a promise here to myself not to spend any money on neccessary stuff.
at all. NOT AT ALL.
for u nik.

and how i wish u are here with me aungye.

2007-06-17T18:57:00.000+08:00

This two wks will be horrible for me.
hes gone back.

anyway i will be havin my:
2nd root canal treatment.
appt at skin centre.
EC.

omg. means spend more money n busy whole wk. ):

no money! my wallet left 2 dollars. muz withdraw more for my tooth. =/

how to survive 2wks ...

today is day one.

I slept on the bed till abt 6pm i woke up.
use computer,play with nik.
feel lonely.

haiz.

shud i call u?
or just forget it...
maybe u are having fun there & dont rmb me...

2007-06-14T15:09:00.000+08:00

im so sick.
i think i can just die ......

my condition is not improving! rashes all over my body. its so bad.
fever since last fri?

many other things.

i feel so helpless and scared jus crying.

shud i admit myself into a hospital?

i duno.

i dont have money.
:'(

2007-06-12T16:24:00.000+08:00

Every day I make a wish if I could be the one for you

The eyes you look into
Are concentrating on someone else
The two hands you are holding
Look cold as ice
The figure that is holding you
Doesn't look right in my eyes
The words coming out of his mouth
They seem like lies to me

What are you worrying about?
Why can't you leave him?
Do happen to truly love him
So much that you'd die for him?

[CHORUS]
Even if I was given the world, I don't need it
I just want to make you happy, but no
I just want to make you smile
Yeah ~ if I could ever be the one
Even if I was given the world, I don't need it
I just want to make you happy, but
No ~ if I could ever be the one

Your friends have hold you
That he's definatly not the one
Then you say it's not true
Because you love him so much
The smile you force
Seems so difficult to keep
During this long, lonely night
You'll be letting tears fall again

What are you worrying about?
Why can't you leave him?
I get angry seeing you like this
I hurt, oh please
Look at me just once

[CHORUS]
Even if I was given the world, I don't need it
I just want to make you happy, but no
I just want to make you smile
Yeah ~ if I could ever be the one
Even if I was given the world, I don't need it
I just want to make you happy, but
No ~ if I could ever be the one

[RAP]
Sadly, I just want to cry
That's how much I want to feel you
For one word, one strand of hope
I've waited so long
There's a loto of pain, so before it's too late
Please tell me if I could ever be the one

With tears falling down I put my hands together
I pray (I put my hands together and pray)
That I could meet you and hold you
If I could ever be the one

[CHORUS]
Even if I was given the world, I don't need it
I just want to make you happy, but no
I just want to make you smile
Yeah ~ if I could ever be the one
Even if I was given the world, I don't need it
I just want to make you happy, but
No ~ if I could ever be the one

2007-06-09T11:26:00.000+08:00

im sick!.

i duno wad happened to me... i feel horrible.
i nid to go doctors but im scared. and i duno which kind of clinic i shud go.

i've got no money.

and i nid company.

thanks wq for askin how im . thanks ay.

shud i ask someone to bring me to the doc... im really scared.

oh yeah. m totally disgusted by those girls in frdsters tt post their bitchy pics.
usu sg girls jus pose like their own pics in a sexy way whch is cool.
but some other cty ones are like so many girls in little clothes posin with guys?
so PORN can.
disgusting bitches. duno why some guys can like this kind.
i think they are just shit. no respect for them at all.

2007-06-08T21:33:00.000+08:00

there is some stupid prob with my blog.

the cbox & the music. ahh. but im too sick to fix it yet.

wad a day. i really wish u are here to look aft me.
well at least reply to my sms.
anyway. nite everyone. hope i will be alrte.

usual me wud be paranoid, thinkin thinkin alot.
but i've learnt to neglect the paranoid-ya.
why?
is it becos i lve u mre?
or i dont wan to know anymore.

2007-06-06T22:48:00.000+08:00

"Cry Me A River"

You were my sun
You were my earth
But you didn't know all the ways I loved you, no
So you took a chance
And made other plans
But I bet you didn't think that they would come crashing down, no

You don't have to say, what you did,
I already know, I found out from him
Now there's just no chance, for you and me, there'll never be
And don't it make you sad about it

You told me you loved me
Why did you leave me, all alone
Now you tell me you need me
When you call me, on the phone
Girl I refuse, you must have me confused
With some other guy
Your bridges were burned, and now it's your turn
To cry, cry me a river
Cry me a river-er
Cry me a river
Cry me a river-er, yea yea

I know that they say
That somethings are better left unsaid
It wasn't like you only talked to him and you know it
(Don't act like you don't know it)
All of these things people told me
Keep messing with my head
(Messing with my head)
You should've picked honesty
Then you may not have blown it
(Yea..)

You don't have to say, what you did,
(Don't have to say, what you did)
I already know, I found out from him
(I already know, uh)
Now there's just no chance, for you and me, there'll never be
(No chance, you and me)
And don't it make you sad about it

You told me you loved me
Why did you leave me, all alone
(All alone)
Now you tell me you need me
When you call me, on the phone
(When you call me on the phone)
Girl I refuse, you must have me confused
With some other guy
(I'm not like them baby)
Your bridges were burned, and now it's your turn
(It's your turn)
To cry, cry me a river
(Go on and just)
Cry me a river-er
(Go on and just)
Cry me a river
(Baby go on and just)
Cry me a river-er, yea yea

Oh
(Oh)
The damage is done
So I guess I be leaving
Oh
(Oh)
The damage is done
So I guess I be leaving
Oh
(Oh)
The damage is done
So I guess I be leaving
Oh
(Oh)
The damage is done
So I guess I be... leaving

You don't have to say, what you did,
(Don't have to say, what you did)
I already know, I found out from him
(I already know, uh)
Now there's just no chance, for you and me, there'll never be
(No chance, you and me)
And don't it make you sad about it

Cry me a river
(Go on and just)
Cry me a river-er
(Baby go on and just)
Cry me a river
(You can go on and just)
Cry me a river-er, yea yea

Cry me a river
(Baby go on and just)
Cry me a river-er
(Go on and just)
Cry me a river
(Cause I've already cried)
Cry me a river-er, yea yea
(Ain't gonna cry no more, yea-yea)

2007-06-06T21:40:00.000+08:00

i did my nerve treatment today. like 1/3.
still got 2 more sessions.

hmm. costed me 450$ today.

and thank u vanessa for being there. i really nided it.
and the nice nice food we saw & ate.<3 u!.

so i cud rest, but i went all the way to sch to find u.
spend time wit u.
was soo tired...
but dint even have a thank u frm u.
wonder if u appreciate wad i do?

rmb i suddenly sat down instead of lying next to u?
becos it was 5.30pm,i wanted to leave, i really wan to fetch nik.

then, i did not and spent time wit u...
but then i got nth.
is asking for extra care when im sick too much? haix.

nah its ok.

wud u calm me down if i feel insecure?
when i go crazy sometimes.

i know u wun. then u will get angry then we will argue.
i duno why im so moody.
too tired. toothache & money gone.
its my savings...
my savings to bring nik up.. and 1.4k is gg to be gone.
i tot u will try to mk me feel beta.
again i think im asking for too much?

im so tired. and i feel so horrible.
feel like sleeping forever.
really so tired. feel miserable.
can anyone make me happy?
can anyone mk me feel secure?.
can u?

2007-06-05T20:34:00.000+08:00

Last night i cuden tolerate the pain anymre.
i went to changi general hospital A&E section at like midnight.

spent close to 100$ and got nth else but some medicine and an MC.
they cuden do anything as they had no 24hr dentist. like wtf?
its an hospital for godness sake.

anyway went to this clinic at sengkang this morn,
found out i nid to see an endodontist. some nerve specialist.
and have to go for the root canal treatment. remove my nerves in teeth n get new ones or smtg.
will be ard 700$+++?
have a feeling i wud spend like 1K+ on this tooth.
and i feel so. horrible. HORRIBLE.
pain physically & mentally.

and guess wad?
i found out smtg frm his landlord.
if it were true,it wud be devastating, heartbreaking. hell.
but i chose to believe u. until HER phone call came.
forget it.
i dun even know wad to do.shall blog abt it ltr.

now i feel so sad. becos of my tooth and probs with u...
i've really neglected my studies, my room and my baby.
i wan everything to be over asap. tat i can be happy again.

and i will start packing my rm and takin aft nik like king.
thou i've always treated him like a king.(:

im in great pain now. tooth & heart.
tml will go to the endodontist. and im so glad my best frd wud be gg wit me.
love u & thanks. i really nid tt someone to be wit me.

for now, im too tired. jus too sick & tired.

2007-06-04T00:00:00.000+08:00

thought it was me and u baby,
me and u until the end. but i guess i was wrong.

dont wana think abt it.
dont wana talk abt it.
i'm just so sick abt it.
cant believe its ending this way..

im just so confused abt it.

tell me is this fair?

PS. My gums are hurting like fuck. FUCKFUCKFUCK it.!

Im in such a horrible state.

I NEED movies.
or can just die already. toooo tired.

2007-05-29T23:13:00.000+08:00

u didnt get wad i mean...

how to explain, when things already turned so bad.
u wud nv give me another chance.

i shall go with whatever u want.

i nv knew this day wud come.

2007-05-29T22:05:00.000+08:00

i need to say this thou.

NOT ENUF OF
: kisses, hugs, love, care and concern!

its never ever enuf for me. im greedy and i wan MORE MORE MORE!

love my babies.

and tml im catchin pirates of the carribean!
i am damn excited can! i will get super high!
cos movies is like part of my life!

wished tt cud watch it with baby but movies at cinemas is not for him.
i donwan to bore u.

u buy dvds then i watch wit u at home k? (:

and nik faster grow up so mummy can bring u to more places. most impt, the cinemas!!!

2007-05-29T20:16:00.000+08:00

i was feeling paranoid-ya like the whole wkend so i ate alot.
=x
like alot of fast food la!
im not the type tt will lose my appetite and eating makes me HAPPY!.
so when im v happy or v sad. i eat more.

its tt bad tt baby said im chubbier on monday morn!
but he thinks im cute so yeah (:

-nga min ko yone kyi par tae, *i trust u*

and sometyms when he smiles, he just looks so cute. i dont like it when he is fierce. v scary):

anyway he was like so stress for food cost test.
nv listen when i talk one ):
snapsnapsnap

okok and how can i not mention i got a guinea pig last wk??!
im like an animal lover too!
so far i've reared:
*fishes
*some hamsters
*8 terrapins
*3 rabbits
*2 chicks
*a dog
*guinea pig.

hehehe.
he is damnn cute! but v hard to tk pics...

and his name is mike (:
he looks much cuter in real la!!!

my mum & sis totally lousy at using cam. =/

i got a few mre pics frm my digi cam but lazy upload.

hm baby has been more understanding this few days. giving in to me usu.
cos we both dont like to argue. and nowadays we are beta.
was kinda shock cos its the first few times when he wud apolojise & tell me how much he loves me.
and im glad, we love each other more.
and im so afraid the day i start attachtment. i wun b able to c him as much.
and im afraid things will turn bad. i hpe not. i know it wun for me.

i love this pic alot,in fact all other pics of us.

but see, he looks so tired. the smile is forced one! >.<
<3...
so sad lar. one mth anni he was sick.
2nd month anni he will be in myanmar.
when then cn spend it wit him?

and i gotta admit i love his tattoos on his hip the sides there. v sexy!
XD

and nik! tt notti boy.
yet so cute always. fell aslp while i was walkin hm frm plaza aft dinner.

candid.

baby help me to do smtg tts so swt of him.
patience. i appreciate it & like it alot. love u.
next tym i help u! (:

i duno if im asking too much. but i wan u to understand me beta.
bring us out more often, come find me mre often.
jus do more stuffs for me more often.
make me feel loved yea?
im like so tired everyday frm school, nik & etc.

oh yah. u know i catch the trainer like looking at me every lesson.
i got witness somemre lor. weird. =/
anyway baby booked for me to have lunch with him at sch.
erm only the atmosphere is v nice! the food. =/
still i was happy, thanks baby!

below is a stupid photo:

* i dont like to put nik at childcare.
i prefer to pick him up. hehe.
when he sees me he comes running to me.
then he wud tell me. *hmmm-mak*
the kiss sound. XD so swt lahhhh!
i feel lucky. contented (:
thank u baby.
i wud do my part as a gd mummy!

and thanks chris. for everything.

love u aungye. i knw we cn overcome everything. i hope .

miss u vanessa & yelena.

bless me & nik.

stay happy everyone!

2007-05-27T23:23:00.001+08:00

If I were blue
would you be there for me
And whisper in my ears that's okay
Would you stand by me
let me hold you tight
And say you love me one more time

If I feel good
would you slow dance with me
And touch my lips with tender love and care
Would you die for me
would you run with me
And never look back

Would you be there to love to be with me
Would you swear that your love is always true
Would you say that you'll always be the one
to take my breath away
Would you be there..

if i am away
would you stil think of me
and wish that you could hold me now, hold me now~
and would you die for me
would you run with me
all the way

Would you be there to save my soul tonight
Would you swear that your love is always true
Would you say that you'll always be there
to kiss my pain away
would u be dere..
for me...

2007-05-27T15:51:00.000+08:00

so i heard smtg shocking frm my friends..

its so hard to believe either side.

BUT. i've decided myself tt i should trust u.
i trust u, i trust u.

its so easy to prove what actually happened. i can ask ppl.
check here & there. BUT i donwan.
because i trust u.

sometimes i like to anyhow think. but then sometyms i close one eye.

its like. i rather not know, not care.
Then to be jealous & be unhappy everyday.

my love for nik is still the deepest and most impt.
at least i know he wud nv betray me. i hope he wun in future(:

still. im waiting for the day.
tt my pics appear in friendster. sends me home aft sch.
willing to do more for me.
know its hard for u cos u've nv done things like tt befre.

we have diff backgrds.

seriously i wud do anything for the person i love. be it travelling, distance, time, effort.
anything i wud do. i wun mind.
but now i cant becos of nik, if not there are so many things i wan to do for u!

anyway just wan2 tell u tt u've been a good bf and i love u.
and nik has been a gd boy & i love u too!

and thanks frds for being there for me. guiding me.
chris,yelena & Vanessa! (: <<3!!

2007-05-26T14:47:00.001+08:00

my stupid sister went to eat the ice cream my bf bot for me.

like hey today my days sucks.
he's sick & i cant like look aft him or anything.

and i miss him. i want to eat the ice cream then i found out she ate it.

its not always he gets me special stuffs. ARGH!

anyway i think i will fail food cost. i suppose to knw how to do! i knew how in class!
but during the test i totalli duno.
minghao copy my ans la. hope the front parts are right then.

hmm. one month anni.
i wrote him a nice card. with his language, wad i wan to say to him.

but i haven got any present from him yet, wud i?

ok, so sat i shall just slack. slp the whole day & go airport or somewhr at night with bestie.
suppose to go sch but was too tired & totally no mood.

nik v cute leh!

and i love a super romantic guy.

someone do something to make me happy pls!
-im not happy.

2007-05-22T23:03:00.000+08:00

so2 tired today.
slpt in the mrt in the morn.
as usual met baby on the mrt then go sch tgt. so swt. (:

hmm food cost control. i slpt agn. but like 5mins only.
really the feeling very horrible. so tired but cnt slp. then my notes i copyin rubbish.

aft my sch went for break with baby & his classmates.
shared rice & teh-peng with him.

waited for him in sch.
went to pastry kitchen to find my ec grp & minghao.

hmm aft sch, went to settle's his project work stuffs.
with chris,gloria,vincent, and the two girls. i forgot their names! =x.
took quite awhile but finally settled it by 6pm.

was kinda tired but decided to have dinner with ye becos wun be miting him on weds.
but having dinner with him wud mean gg home late & less tym with nik.
well as long as he appreciates it its ok cos not everytym. (:

went for steamboat near bugis area with baby, chris & gloria.
had fun & eat till soo full!

a few pics we took..

=p

baby's left & right view.

i love it when he tells me "i love u"
every single time we kiss.
its never enuf.
the taste and smell of ur lips,
is such a familiarised scent which i crave for every single time.
its makes me calm down, and soo comfortable.. =)

and grp pics.

chris thinks tt he looks fat but i dont think so.
anyway the pic is soso funny & i love it!

then her hands got shaky resulting in the next blurred pic.

i've like 2 mre other grp pics but is so blur tt i had to del it.

the sweet couples.

so we all had fun, be it cooking, eating, chatting. (:
and his grp mates all v funny & nice ppl (:
thanks for 2day!

i took a cab home after tt. wanted to rush hm. my baby is waiting for me!
when i reached hm first thing i did was hug,carry nik.
change him, make him milk etc.
ahh he is such a darling. but so notti everyday.
whr shall i bring him this wk end.. hmmm.
but then i heard maybe sat got sch. such a turn off.

so i miss ye already la. its like tml i cant mit him!
nvm thurs. hehe. this wk pass so fast sia.
maybe its cos i feel happy. time pass so fast.
i really wan to graduate but i dont wan to go attachtment! *starts in oct*

wun have enuf time for my darlings. )':

i really hope i can get married at the age of 23. hahaha.
have another baby.
be a housewife? (:

2007-05-21T21:09:00.000+08:00

THURS. 17/05.

suddenly cancel kitchen.
so was free,slp till 11+ befre gg down to BB station to wait for baby.
acc-ed him the whole afternn. (:

ILOVEU.

FRI. 18/05.

food cost is getting harder?! or is it me not paying attention =x
baby & i both ended class at ard 12noon.
treat him to lunch @ the myanmar restaurant @ peninsular(:
spend the afternn with him, had to leave at 6pm cos i had another appointment.):
with my 2 besties vanessa & yelena! <3! 2 very pretty babes!

candid shot.

we went to toys r us.. nik made all the toy cars fall then he panick n put em bac. lol.

while at toysrus. jianhong kip disturbin vans la! even called her hse. horrible fellow. yuck.

afterwhich yelena bot gaoluck.
we all were munching on it greedily. hehehe.

bot bubble teas all walked home frm PR interchange. chats & gossips (:
had a great day but soo tired!

SAT. 19/05.
Baby came over to my hse!
bot me an ice cream. so swt, ty baby!
we spent time watching videos on internet, damned funny. XD.
baby.

why so many girls miss my baby! i donwan ya. ):
Oh and u know a SIM card in myanmar is 7k sing dollars! cn u believe it. so exp sia!!!!

baby shud just buy me ALOT of DVDS cos its cheap & ez to buy nt like clothes & shoes whr u have to know the rite size. so buy me alot of movies baby! comedies. horror anything!
then i will love u more. hehe. *naoda*. already love u alot.

anyway bac to the entry baby styed wit me till 9 thou i wished he had gone to white sands with me but i cant nv get enuf of him. but i still appreciate his presence.
i went to NTUC with nik. got milk powder, instant noodles n canned food.
walked hm aft tt.

SUN. 20/05.
went to aunt hse at boonlay. used to sty there. FLORAVALE.
let nik swim cos tts his fav!
sadly i cuden due to certain reasons. *ehem*

nik wit my aunt.

my cousins,sis,aunt & nik.

isnt the pool so so pretty?

i love to swim. i wan to swim with aungye soon!!
of cos nik too.

went to JP with relatives. sat in my uncle's car. so happee. i like CRVS. big cars.
so spacious & high! XD.
anyway while i was shopping in kiddy palace 4 nik's neccessities,tis girl kip cming.

haha. charmed by nik.. wahaha. but she is cute too!

at night, i had a hard tym gg bac. i was sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo tired.
then nik donwan to listen to me kip being notti.
cuden get a cab. exhuasted. so terrible.
when went bac mre stuffs happen. i was so upset at first but realise smtg worst happened to baby.
so baby,
taung pan par tae. i cut alot of hearts for him and wrote sorry in
eng,chi & burmese. did until quite late.
was dead tired. hehe but i dont mind.
suppose to go sch but i dont give a ****. class mates just suck. ):

went to find baby in the morn. bot grass jelly.
passed hearts to him. he smiled! (:
and our day was perfect. acc him, send him to sch. wait for him. went bac his hse & watch dvd.
i bot like blood & chocolate & just follow law pirated dvd. got so many i wan2 buy buy scared not nice eh and i donwan watch it alone.
anyway msia's dvd oso damn cheap one, 1 is like 2.5$ only.

really enjoyed today. i want to trust my baby like my husband.
im glad everything is fine, relationship stronger. much stronger.
<3!
just cant stand his ex gf kip disturbing him. when can she stop.
so childish. really i think im more mature & beta in her in so many ways.
i know she has money, qualifications, looks i duno. to me she looks normal.
but me! i've got things money cant buy!
im a much beta gf,mother. im brave. i dont do things to ruin ppl life.
look wad patrick did to me, but i dont wan to disturb his life.
dont hate someone, it really ruins ur life.
and pls stop disturbing my baby. u think he cares? he doesnt. u are jus irritating him.

aungye i love u.
nik i love u.

i love his mirror. hehe.

i love u so much baby.

*last night was so tough with nik i almost break down.
he was really notti. but m glad i survived. m gg to work on it.
nik, trust me mummy will not let u down. mummy will mk u a happy person.
tts my promise to u.

2007-05-18T23:00:00.000+08:00

I met up with my TWO BEST BESTIES on thurs night.
Yelena & Vanessa. i brot nik along too!

Befre tt i spent time with my baby aungye.(:

But lazy to upload pics so shall update all in the next posts along with my wkend.

I WANT TO BUY ALOT OF THINGS!

CLOTHES.BOTTOMS.BAGS.*BIG & SMALL*.CHANGE MY LOOK.ALOT OF MOVIES.DVDS.LINGERIE.SHOES.SLIPPERS.NIK's CLOTHES.NECCESSITIES.FOOD.

But when got time?! and how to spend my wkends i duno.
maybe i wan to go the place he donwan go or he wan i donwan go. ):
then if wan to go out with chris oso v bad like leave him alone.

but baby dont misunderstd i go out with chris is becos he will help me with nik and i go where he also like. but when go out wit u i usually rather not go to the places i wan to go instd just go whr u wan to go so u can be happy.

anyways i love u.

NIK!
i hope it rains tonite then i can have a cosy nite with my baby!
hehe so excited. wkend cn spend time with my babies! (:

2007-05-18T00:29:00.000+08:00

I love my baby.
my boyfrd, my best frends *vanessa, yelena & christopher*
my grandma.
afew other frds.

the rest i fucking dont care. all shit.

2007-05-17T01:27:00.000+08:00

suddenly it ALL comes.
i cant slp.

i am starting to think too much.
why?
im not like tt.

suddenly i duno if i can trust u.

no u dint do anything wrong.
but.

i duno ur past.
i duno how u are in myanmar.
i wud never know. cos i can never go.

wad if something happens when u go bac in june?
i cant tk it if ppl hide smtg/lie frm me & i found out.
i really will go mad.

why. goddamnit
i wun be able to slp the WHOLE of tonite.

can i trust u?

IM SCARED='(

2007-05-15T21:53:00.000+08:00

i LOVE ice cream! heres milk tea & choco ones.
frm dose japanese ice cream shops!

and agn, dint wanted to post this pic but nik is toooo cute!

and here a lousy shot but its with my precious baby.

on mon no school.

accompany ye the wholeday.
we shared kway teow for breakfast cos nt so hungry.

watch the korean drama all-in.
got his favourite actress ma. tsktsk. he beta buy my
stairway to heaven & 200 pound beauty etc etc.
(:

in the afternn he brot to charcoal for lunch.
saw alot of ppl there. sir melvin, wong.
he saw his frens & sir.
we had the Bumpy Lumpy chix & seabass for main course.
err. not v nice la.
but was so happy with him.

afterwhich met his myanmar frens.
1guy. then honey & jen. all v nice ppl.
too bad i duno myanmar then duno wad they talking abt ):

<3!!
just hang ard then went bac already.

had dinner at plaza at nite.
with chris & yum we went to drink tt LITTLE BIT.

yum & his beer *above*
barcadi breezer *below*

im a super lousy drinker.

TUES.
food cost class, sir kelvin nt here, william soh taught us instd.
duno wad he talking abt also. duno why today nv learn the formulas. like nv do practices.
met him during break

waited for baby to end his class while i was walking at boon lay.
met alan for sakae buffet at funan. thx baby for the treat.
i know i promised to treat u but so sori abt tt.

so aft tt becos of some MISUNDERSTANDING agn i made baby UNhappy.
but managed to cheer him up agn. (: love u always.

WEDS. *nosch*
went out with chris in the morn.
bot two tops. one vest frm espirit. 79.90$ but got 50% discount. a top frm mango. 35$
no money. but got so many other things i wan2 buy.
think buying new heels for sch. i think baby was hinting its ugly the other day. haha.
and mre stuffs! ahh someone tell me the perfect place to shop plsplspls.

went to find baby in the afternoon.
had such nice kisses!! (:
bot him a nice cake. just a small one even thou i knw he wun eat it prob.
baby said i look pretty today. hehehehehehehehehehehehe.
but really really stupid. every single pic i took was so ugly n somemre this is the best.
still so ugly.

*had alot of things to say eh but i suddenly forgot everything....

tml m meeting yelena at nite! with nik!
either swim or park or walk ard. soo miss her. and vans! but wud she be free? ):

i hope one day my pics appears on ur frdster.
really.

i rmb i used to be unhapi abt nik gg childcare but m so hapi now.
cos i know he will learn & have fun. and wud be safe der.
<3.

2007-05-14T00:05:00.000+08:00

chris was soo hungry during foodcostcontrol class tt we had to get smtg..
looks tempting eh?

our nonsence.

i was so sleepy i closed my eyes while sir was teaching,but cud still catch up (:

Baby's classes aft lunch was cancelled! so happee cud spend somemre time with him.
till 630 when he mit his grpmates to do projects.

when i reached hm, saw tt nik had some stuffs for me frm childcare!
sooo nice!

the cookies tasted damn gd i tell u! even beta than some shops one.

so went to have dinner at plaza. while in the lift & etc.

then on sat, went out wit family & chris.
dint meet ye cos he was having a hangover & did nt wan2 disturb/trouble him.
first tampines then simei then clarke quay.

i wan to have a pet! maybe in future (:

nik recently learnt tt he has to hold my hand while walking in some areas. so cute!

reading a bk while waitin for the food

here i tried to tk pics with him but got myself cut off so horribly.

I FINALLY GOT TO TASTE my craving-of-the-wk : milk tea ice cream.
BUT! not frm the shop i wanted. first taste was yuck. then beta. but i wud rate okok.
still, i got cravings for ice-cream this wk.

(:

i bot shoes too! its so preeetty.
jus tt my 2nd toe sticks out n i look v weird wearin it ):
its brown in colour.

so baby cme my hse on sun.
he gave me a surprise!

a BIG heart shape box.! with.....
winnie the pooh.*a very soft one, with a blue rose* love it. thx!

ye & my sis

then he almost cnt tk it. haha. my sis is horrible but he thinks cute!

they look so happee!

befre tt we went westplaza for lunch.
it was raining la. i made sure nik dint get wet of cos.
but i myself got wet. argh. anyway enjoyed my lunch.

baby had to leave at ard 6 cause i had to go dinner ltr on.
at the busstop...

thx baby for coming! i appreciate it.

for dinner, i had this mothers day menu.
had like all the expfood. crab.scallop.sharkfin.fish.duckmeat.prawns.friedrice.dessert. etc.
V nice. and exp!
$400 for 6ppl.

here is nik and his cousin, candid shot.

ahh m so tired to blog la.
shall jus post mre pics.

caught in the act!

m soo tired. gg to stop here.
talkin to baby.

nik's so notti. i really want to be a better mummy.
i will try my best. becos i know im still not a gd mother.
i dont know so many things.

2007-05-10T21:50:00.000+08:00

here to update my weds & today.

NO sch on weds. baby dint go sch either.
so decided to mit him in the afternoon. i wk up only at 11+.
he wanted to go sentosa so i went to his area first & we took bus 80 to harbourfront.

his fren came along too. duno hw to spell his name.
but he is one funny & quiet guy.

bot roast pepper chix. tk MRT to sentosa then bus to siloso beach.
we decided to settle down on the bridge. so NICE! near the waters. so near.
this bridge, we just sat down on it.

*his fren is attemting to jump in the water. but its too small to be seen.

they had their beer. while i had my cranberry apple drink & roast chix (:
so yummy. nice company & weather & environment & everything. v relax(:

the nice view we had

so preeety ya?

pics tken tgt. the nicer ones are in his hp! then he nv send me):

this is lovely

hey i mean the bckgrd ah. hehe.

then the hses & tram v cute!

now this is so unglam ew. but so funni.
the one in black is his fren. im luffing behind oh no so ugly.

frm the MRT

anyway tt day at class. saw desmond calculator. so antique can!

so today *thurs*
i think baby & i had some misunderstdin i dint really know how he felt & vice versa.
chris & gloria tot i was mad at him but i tot he was mad at me?
anyway its solved. thx (:
its just a small thing only.
hope tt we can give in more often.

i waited for him aft sch cos i really had nth to do.
wait at tanjong pagar since 2plus i think.

accompany him, then for dinner & headed hm.
v happi today cos there was so much to mk fun of. him & i.
took pics.

ok m really craving for tt bubble milk tea flavour ice cream i saw @ bugis.
duno nice anot.
and i missed my korean movie! haix. ):

nik!!
mummy is gg to bring u out soon!
one mre day befre wkends.. yay.
i really want to spend alot of quality time with u! its nv enuf.

i wan2 spend it with aungye too.
aiyo. y ur frdster no my pic alreadi the ugly one & ur com wallpaper. zzzz.
anyway thank u for today! (: love u manymany. like food. ok?

2007-05-07T19:23:00.000+08:00

ON SUN..
*summary*
went out with nik & frds.
i bot 2 tops & only spend 31$ (:
ate ice cream. walked & walked & walked.
*raffles link.suntec.marina.funan.*

i feel bad abt not spending the day with baby.
so, got him a mouse for his labtop.
frm funan 18.90$
intend to give it to him on mon morn. hehe!

nik slept like aloooot.
oh yeah. some pics.
frm previous outings & etc.

when nik just wake up frm naps:

chris giving weird look while eating:

while hlping me, on MRT:

ok this is UGLY. i've no eyebrows.
my classmate was sayin tt i eat my eyebrows when im hungry!! >.<

nik LOVES lifts. like serious! he always stares until like tt:

and, he wud start luffing at the voice sometyms. haha.

so nik is getting tall-er la.
he was slping and then this kid called nik "baby"
the grandpa was like saying : he is older than u la.
then i was thinking. oh no. my boy is only 19mths old ok. well it happens all the time.
he is as tall as a 4yr old kid?!
i dontwan buy ezlink ah. ):
see how tall he is compared with my 6yr old sis.

*do click on the pic & enlarge it!!* (:

MON morn.
wk up, changed nik into his sch uni. he looked so handsome XD
then i made my way to tanjong pager to mit baby. aungye!!!
we were like the only ppl in home clothes, everyone was in office wear.
like crazy lidat. we had breakfast & chit chatted.
proceeded to his hse to rest, then like awhile he had to go sch for lesson.
he planned to escape his second class which mean he only go sch 1-2.30.
waited for him at sch.
afterwhich we went peninsular plaza & baby cut his hair.
so chubby & cute!

we strolled down to boat quay to have lunch.
settled down at a thai restaurant by the riverside.
the drinks,food damn exp la. zzzz.
anyway had seafood fried rice & stir fried kangkong, vvv nice! shared with baby.
afterwhich we decided to go bac cos i nid to fetch nik. he sent me off at the station.
ahh so happee today. so swt.
baby with his new haircut.

i miss vans & yelena like ALOT!
i miss ye alot too!

i love nik! but why he always feeling so tired? ):

2007-05-05T23:44:00.000+08:00

Food cost control ah is so............
BORING!
ahh so much maths. first lesson i feel like slping already. HOW?
):
but the trainer is ok la. quite nice(: mr kelvin soo.

so i watched spiderman3 with baby tt day. at JP.
i still think tobey look beta with his good boy look(:
the evil him is so stupid. =x
anyway i enjoyed myself alot cos its 1st tym watchin movie at the theatre with baby(:
and also the movie was good.

i still wan2 watch:
200pounds beauty
wildhogs
pirates of the carribean
moremoremore.

aft sch ytd, i accompanied ye as his break only ends at 2.45pm.
went to west mall to hangout. then he took a cab back to sch. haha.

i went hm, fetch nik frm his sch earlier as he was feeling unwell & paid the schfees.
i got ALOT of subsidy eh! shall nt disclose this. hehehehe.

weekend sat.
woke up late. got ready & took a cab down to bugis to mit ye.
cos i tot he ends at 1+ but had to wait till 3+.
not hapi! but not his fault so dont blame him at all.
i jus i dont like the idea of mking a girl and a baby wait. not nice ma.
all his grp member fault. tsk tsk!

went to Bugis with baby to hang ard.. bot nice food & drinks.
took pics!!!

at the foodcourt..

i love his smile!! i love this pic.

then tt day.. b4 we went Vivo...
someone so vain XD

and this in sch.. i look so weird.

then on fri was late for sch so tk a cab.
got stupid jam due to some accident?! and the cab fare was like 30$

then i wanted to tk a pic of myself. chris go n block me!

this, my fav cake. duno wads the name of it

so bac to today.
bid baby farewell at bugis mrt. gonna miss him so muchh.
ah. think mon morn will go accompany him(:
then met chris at pasir ris as he owes me my usb cable.
we walked home.

thx for sending me home!
i dint wan to bother baby & since chris is free & stays near me + he pass me smtg so i met him instd.
in the lift.

reaching home..

lastly, my happy but so naughty boy.

baby,i want to make u happier.
but i really dont know how........
anyway enjoyed myself today.

2007-05-02T20:31:00.000+08:00

i took so many pictures today with my V3i!!!

Took of me,nik & aungye.

Budden! i cant find my usb cable leh. how to transfer!!! ahh!
disappointing):

So this week our Event Catering starts.
Im under garde manger. as expected. appetizers & etc.

after sch went out with ye. He skip class!
at first i believed tt he has no mre class buden can tell by the look on his face!
kip smiling2.
anyway i appreciate it. but u shuden skip so much la. u knw ur attendance has to be mre than 90%.

we went peninsular. he checked out how much it is for the tic bac to myanmar.
went for a drink at the same myanmar restaurant.
then went to rest at his hse for awhile cos v near city area.

so happee i cud spend time with him today. dint expect it.
cos he suppose to have class until 4+!
but tml he ends at 2+.

baby doesnt wan to watch movie with me cos he says wun be able to talk to me much & aft the movie have to go home already.
so he promised to get me the movies i want when he goes to myanmar!
and i wan lots of presents ah! to pay bac cos nobody accompany me!
haha.

nik is sick...! but im taking care of him.
still got some medicine left. if finish still not ok have to bring him to docs already.
poor boy. but still so notti!

ah. now i think i hate theory uniform. zzz.
rather wear shatec shirt. (:

anyway befre i end.. these are the stuff ye got for me when he went bac to myanmar tt time...
last tym he asked for my num the next day he went bac.
i dint knw him so well yet.
still, he bot me nice things(: love u baby!

2 nice and comfy tops.

a v beautiful jade pendant. i wan2 wear but no necklace? i want LONG one. silver.
dont like short necklace. uncomfortable.

<3

2007-05-01T20:59:00.000+08:00

I love tobey maguire. spiderman actor.

last but not least...

okok. but this is the best.
he is soo cute!

ltr he will jealous.

im excited abt school tml thou i know on aft tml i will be like
:ahh i dontwan to go sch!

i hope sch ends early. i hope ye also ends early.
i want to watch movies!!!
and i wan baby to watch it with me.

thank you, for rejecting offers to go watch Spiderman3 for me.
i appreciate it(:
tk care everyone!
MY TLC for nik is making him recover(;

2007-04-30T22:16:00.000+08:00

so forget abt the unhappy thing atm.

today, i dont have sch. went to mit aungye at his hse der.
he also received msg frm his frd tt he got no sch today! wee. we were so hapi.

had breakfast *nasi-lemak* at coffeeshop.
went to his hse & watch the movie eragon. i think its okok only lor.
baby gave me a spare V3i battery! woo. so happee. cos he say V3i the batt v fast finish.
nw i dont have to worri abt low batt le(: thx!!

afterwhich we went Vivo, marche. cos his grp had to do project.
i rmb seeing sinyee. june. xiaohong & one mre girl i dun really know their names.
only know sinyee cos she was at rosette befre.

the food was not bad. i had a sirlion while baby has pork steak.
cranberry apple for me & beer for him. =/
thx baby for the lunch! enjoyed it(: <3!

so happee today. haha. thou its just simple outing.
u know even the bus ride was so enjoyable.
maybe cos we dont get to do stuffs like tt often so its really precious to me.

went bac his hm & slacked awhile & i rushed off to fetch nik.

whole day was perfectly happy. cool and alrte until tt fucking girl.
ok sorry for the vulgarities.
fucking whore. fucking slut. fucking bitch.
my frds all knoe i dont hate ppl. i hate her so much so she obviously really have some HUGE prob.

anyway. nik is so cuteee!
Fuyuan i love u baby (:
tml i shall bring u out. (:

aungye. la chit tae.

2007-04-30T22:02:00.000+08:00

now. tt ex-gf is still harassing him.
she is like a stalker? worst than tt.

i dont know why she loves him so much until the extend she have to do crazy things.

hey. why cant u just let it go. get on with life.
u're 27. you've a stable job & some degree or masters idk.
you look fine. why still disturbing him when you can always find another guy?

i know its hard, v hard to let go of someone whom u used to love so much.
but u've been pestering him for how long?? u know he doesnt love u anymore. wth u want?

u lost nth. u want to compare with me?

I can say i used to LOVE patrick with all my heart & soul. my life.
I had nik & he just disappeared. i was crazy. bt i did not become like YOU.
You still have a great life.

My life changed. totally.i had to give up numerous things for my baby.
i had to bear the consequences, everything.
A life is not just so simple whr u give birth n just dont care abt anything.
NO. he is my responsibility and everything i do i've to think abt him.
i cud have just aborted him noone wud know. my stomach wasnt tt obvious even till late.
but i did not.

every other couple, they can watch movies. i cant. simple stuffs like tt i cannot.
i cannot do alot of things. i dont mind. just afraid the other party mind.
so many probs. and patrick just abandoned me with everything.
i admit i still have feelings even aft nik was born but i knew i had to let go its jus impossible.

im 17. u are 27 yet still doing stupid stuffs. disappointing.

so why cant u just stop pestering him.
its so affecting me can.
BITCH. WHORE. SLUT. FUCKING SHIT.
dont make his life miserable.

he did not do anything wrong. right frm the start u were SUPER UNreasonable to him.

2007-04-29T13:19:00.000+08:00

SPIDERMAN 3!

I WANT TO WATCH IT SO BADLY.

MY TOBEY MAGUIRE!!!

2007-04-29T00:32:00.000+08:00

i realised nik has started doing work in class!
so cute. my boy doin his first work! will def treasure it.
his better pieces..

the not-so-good ones look so funny to me. XD

SAT.

received news frm classmates tt weds than start sch! yeah.
so went to grandma hse in the morn. afterwhich IMM.
stupid salesman. i was pushing nik & on the phone still come to promote his products.. =/

IMM got alot alot alot of FOOD!!!
ok and i actualli took a cab frm IMM to jurong east MRT. the uncle kip askin me qns la.
like why dont u tk the free shuttlebus etc.
HOW TO TAKE WHEN I M CARRYING A BABY, A PRAM AND BAGS!?

anyways met baby! took mrt to city hall
walked alot. taught him how to push the pram up escalators & etc.
went to shops. he bot a top frm topman. happy. cos anyway is wear for me to c de.
and he bot a pair of shoes frm bata. white ones. cool.
so whole day only he went shopping! i dint buy anything.
M gg to go on MONDAY.

shall go pei baby in the morn cos his classes start at 1pm.
afterwhich met vans. *hope she is free* if not have to go alone or find some1.

nik slept alot thruout. we just really all we did was shop & walk. haha.
went to some foodcourt. had a bit of food. met nelson.

then baby last min told me he had to attend some party.
was really disappointed but then im not angry or wad la.
just sad tt he has to go halfway...

pics taken befre we left. so tiring today!
my babies.. both oso nid me to tk care of. haha!

taken by nelson.
ilu baby!

having fun..

ok i look really bad here. haha. cos the photographer nv say when tk one.. >.<

anyway aungye really tried his best today. thank u.
i appreciate it. my love for u is growing each day. stronger.
i hope to find forever & happiness with you baby.

Nik. mummy loves u. thou u tend to be so notti and nv fail to mk me mad everyday, i still love u the same.
its a neverending love. mother to child love. so strong. so incredible.
love mummy too alrte? hehe.
tk care frds!
i love my besties!

2007-04-20T20:52:00.000+08:00

Oh man. i've like sooo much to update?!
actualli have pics of almost everything but gotta rush this post cos its getting late.

will skip alot of details.

last wkend was spent like...
:Thai express
:Airport
:Pasir Ris Park @ night.

pictures...
while waiting for 53 frm airport..

nik's damn cute rte?(:

met nimesh at airport. we had snacks and this cake. see the duck?
its printed on PAPER & chris tried to eat it. damn funi.

so at the NTUC.. chris tryin to cope with nik..

went to PR park aft tt and just chilled.

On mon was productions, went bac to sch.
nth much to comment abt. just boring.
we can just peel garlic the whole shift. like 9 peel till 11am.
eat lunch then go hm.
Hisham sir know i've got a kid so he let me hv morn shift. chris too cos he hlps me.

saw aungye at sch. chatted with him.

so i cant really rmb wad happens on wad days. ahha!

one of the days aft sch i went to eat dinner with ye at a myanmar restaurant @ peninsular. B1.
not bad,thx! (:

another day, went for movie, shooter @ west mall with minghao.
chris cuden mk it last min.

and another of the days chris, nik, andrew & i brot nik to the airport.
so whoevers get PUNKED by whoever is:
eg. andrew punked chris, chris has to say. I've been andrew-ed and tk a vid.
its damn funny.
so for my case if ppl fall for my tricks, u've been liyin-ed or nik-ed.
okok. abit lame=/

andrew..

chris..

friends..

so sometyms during our breaks we hang out with minghao.. doin stupid stuffs.
pics not available atm..

on saturday, chris & andrew cme to pick nik & me. they were so late. but andrew was swt. (:

they were tryin to act like contestants of bachelorette...

afterwhich hanged out at west plaza & went to bishan by bus 53.
here's chris telling nik mean stuffs abt me...

i like BIG cars. mre spacious and smooth.
(:

anyways, on sun... hanged out with the sme click agn.

went pasir ris park..

i had to rush off halfway cause patrick's dad aka nik's grandpa wanted to bring nik & i out for dinner.
patrick is nik's dad and i dont contact patrick anymore.
he is forever an ASSHOLE.

so nik's grandpa drove here & fetch us, saw patrick's sis and her baby. oh and his 2nd sis.
she is a single mum too. as in she was married but divorced i think. but she so pretti.
her son oso v cute. his name is Ludo.
i gotta admit he looks like patrick & nik looks like pat they all kinda hv the same look in real person.

ok to mk things simple tt was nik's cousin ludo.

i duno how old he is i guess 2+ or 3 and he is only 1 kg heavier than nik.
see nik is so heavy & tall! so xinku for me. ha ha.

we had some chinese food at clarke quay's new shopping centre.
afterwhich japanese ice cream and some walking around. his family all V nice.
EXCEPT HIM. *rolls eyes in disgust*

i met aungye aft the family left. cos he live v near. *tanjongpagar*
he kept looking at nik and smiling. (: nik is so cute can.! esp his cheeky look is irresistable.

anyway i really enjoyed my wkend cos i had nik, my cool frds & a nice family to spend it with.

This wk at sch nth much. productions i kena morn shift agn(:
i
: got my new hp V3i, a present frm my best frd(:
: met bestie vanessa! love her so much.
: bot a baby-G watch. v sweet colour.
: got my new specs, agn its red.
: received a jade pendant frm ye as a present. its cool.
: i accepted aungye as my bf(: <3!

ye's landlord is super nice oso. (:

This dessert at swensens is yummy2!

oh yah, no mre attactment at charcoal! gg to start EC next wk le. hahahahahahahaha! XD

Seriously there is so too much to blog. Just feeling really tired & forgetful.

well my boy. my heart melts every single time i see him.
he is just so incredible. ilu.

Today, 26th, thursday.
really enjoyed myself. at sch, during & aft with frds & aungye.
Ye. he is funny. childish & mature at times. today we went for dinner then he act changed into shatec shirt when he cn wear hm clothes. he just wan to wear the sme shirt as me.
althou its a small thot but it means alot. (: ty for today.
i wan to watch mre vcds at ur hse!!!

i miss isabel, vanessa & nik.
i want spend my wkends all with nik!!!!!!

2007-04-17T01:21:00.000+08:00

2, VERY VERY VERY eligible guys.

i really dont know. this hurts.

2007-04-15T00:17:00.000+08:00

my day was GREAT. Quite fun. tiring thou.

met chris at 10am in the morn. went to Bukit Gombak to find andrew.
went to macs for lunch. nik ate alot of fries >.<
andrew played with nik alot but too bad he had to go off aft tt cos he gt soccer @ 3pm.

tt guy really loves kids.. kip playin wit nik. even befre he left.

so frm Bukit gombak, we tk mrt to boonlay.
frm boon lay tk the train cos gt seats. went to vivocity.
but on the way der, got this guy..
seemed abit crazy. kip talking to me asking abt nik =/
managed to tk a pic of him:

walked ard vivo. nth much. decided to go AMK frm there. took MRT.
saw albert. chris's sec classmate.
walked walked. shopped shopped. had pepper lunch @ AMK Hub.

i bot like 75$ worth of clothes frm this shop. forgot the name.
but act onli 2 tops and 1 pants. for nik de.
very handsome! (:
next tym tk pics when he wear the clothes. its like semi formal kind.
then got some small trolley bag free de. cow. haha cute!

hmm frm AMK we decided to go bishan & find andrew at his hse.
walked thru the bishan park we went tt day. but at nite la.
then cnt see sia and so scary, duno the way.
some parts we actualli ran. >.<

waited for andrew under his blk.
he was damn shocked to c us.. so we went to subway for ALOT of cookies.XD

and snapsnapsnap(:

andrew just bath-ed. his hair.. haha.

taken by chris..

second rounds & the drinks we got.. *snapple*

walau, he took a ugly pic of me la. v unglam ):

but wad i tk was nice.

halfway thru, he was nt feelin well so he went bac hm first.
leaving me & chris chatting at subway while nik was still sleeping.
took bus 58 hm at abt 9+,10.

on the bus..i look chubby. the angle no gd! haha. excuses.

nik was like lying in my arms so comfortably he dint move & slpt. (:
i look motherly. woohoo.

nik, i <3 u.
i know u are afraid of me leaving u.
tts why u wk up at the slightest noises at nite, wanting me to carry u to slp.
i know u dread sch.
but u will get used to it. mk frds, enjoy urself.
mummy's not gg anywhr. i am hapi today. cos i felt the love frm u.
u smiled at me now and then, u try to talk to me thou i did nt understd.
u wan my hugs & kisses & u return em to me too.
tml will be a fun day. i will bring u out agn (:

and who. i still cant mk up my mind.
i wan to concentrate on HIM. one.
both of u are great guys man.
nvm. patience will be rewarded. i must tell myself this everyday.

chris, thx for listening to me tell old grandmother story of my pass.
thx for helping me like wherever i go.
without u i've no idea how i can cope alone.
u gave me happiness & are a really GREAT frd.
<3.

vans & yelena i miss u both.
lets go shopping someday?

and tml i will win! single for 1.5mths.
my grand prize frm best frd chris(:

2007-04-13T19:49:00.000+08:00

soccer was postphoned. becos of certain reasons.

went to bishan to mit andrew aft work. had lunch @ subway.

haiz. why do i look so bad. chris is lousy photographer!

frm der we walked to AMK.
went thru the bishan park & der we had alot of fun.
haha.
alot alot. damn funny. frm tryin to slang to singing staying alive, dancing, pretendin to look at the environments, sneaking ard etc.

Just sat at the macs @ amk.

nt gg to post my photos. i just look so ugly):

saw paul twohill @ macs.
AMK Hub looks damn cool la. i wan2 go shop der someday(:
had to rush off to fetch nik afterwards, took 53 back with chris.

got pics la but chris haven sent me so i think i'll blog in next post.

tml,sat.
wud be sexciting.

well at least both are talking to me more now.
they are so shy.
ah. shud i. shud i not.

but sunday shud be fun(:

2007-04-11T19:24:00.000+08:00

mr wong was in charge ytd la.
but ok lah. working with chris so it wasnt tt bad.

the service staff aboyour was quite nice. he kip laughing at us.
cos we kip crapping. he was telling us tt service staff ppl all serious, no fun.
so sad ): i wuden wan2 work at a place whr i dont get paid & feel bored/miserable.
the only reason why i go to work is for my attendance & friends(:

during breaktime, joshua, chris & i went to macs agn.
desmond off today.
then tml chris off, guess i wud be hanging out with desmond & Josh then. hahaha.

lunch was bz, alot of sandwiches lah! >.<

aft work, hanged out with chris & josh.
went airport. suppose to mit andrew there but he was alil late.
we walked ard & had popeye's.
went off shortly aft.
had to fetch nik frm childcare. tk a taxi der frm airport.

the childcare is having some excursion to the museum bt i dint let nik go.
he is too young. plus so exp. $11+!

today, thurs.
i was late for work. haha. bt abit only lah. did potager(soup) and saucier.

chef melvin thought i got husband lah!
i dont have... and im single. sighs. was kinda sad when he actualli asked me in front of the whole class.
i mean. the class knows but i just felt so down...

anyway i met chris aft work. change of plans, we went bishan to mit andrew.
shopped. i bot a potty for nik(: time to potty- train.
walked,talked,crapped,ate wit andrew. haha.
we played bball at the arcade. i beat chris!! yay yay. (:

enjoyed my day. my frd msged me alot! haha. well. more than usual.

i cant wait for tml. its gg to be FUNFUNFUN.
soccer. yeah.
will upload like pics & everything in my next post.
now. im really tired & lazy.
i want to wear my jersey tml(:

<3 nik.
im gg to spend my wkends bringing him out. to have FUN.
to shower him with TLC. *tenderlovingcare* hehehe.

2007-04-10T19:23:00.000+08:00

i finally went work today. haha.
did nt go last wk frm thurs =x
took a cab cos chris was late.

work was alrte. chris worked as garde manger with me.
went to funan for breakfast during break.

aft work, went bac shatec to collect smtg frm admin.
saw Minghao & Ken!
we were so happi and we all miss rosette ):

had lunch at coffeeshop. yummy. the food der is good & cheap!
went to west mall afterwards for arcade & shop.
tk a train bac. rushed to fetch nik.
MUST befre 7pm. if not...late 1min late muz pay $5! >.<

so took some pics of baby aft sch(:
cute!

my sis & nik..

and in my arms..

i look horrid here but nik looks gd so its ok(:

i've got 2 mre pics with chris.
hmm hope she is alrte ok? sighs. all the best. no matter wad i wud be here for u.

vans hair extentions are preeety! <3 her.

and. i miss. you & you!
i want to feel wanted pls!
not wanting...
so pls msg me/more ):

2007-04-09T21:25:00.000+08:00

Im so tired la.
suppose to have work today but i dint go.
This is the only time i purposely dint go. other times were probs with nik.

last nite chat wit bestie vans till 3.30am, hanged up cos my cordless ph low batt!
dint slp well.
went to airport early in morn. met with chris & vans.
she looked so tired! was like abit worried.
had breakfast at macs & interesting conversations.

*haha. and i blogged aft she blog so i can jus copy & paste.
Im really tired!

so we met andrew, at tanah merah station, headed to PS for our movie.
turned out he dint wan2 watch the movie we had planned to watch, 23.
decided on meet the robinsons? ahha.

chris was very nice to treat us all(:

and here, quoted frm besties' blog was wad we saw:
OMG.I MUST NOT FORGET TO BLOG THIS
on our way down to basement for food
i saw this really disgusting thing
there was this MOULDY OLD man going up the escalator
with a YOUNG GIRL in front of him
initially he was hugging her (and thats bad enuf)
BUT HE ACTUALLY GROPED HER BUTT!
AND HER SKIRT IS LIKE DAMN SHORT
AND IT'S DAMN DISGUSTING

everyone saw excepy andrew.

befre the show started andrew went for a bite at BK.
a whopper in 2 and a half mins:

and we tk the neoprints frm cine, which u can infrared to ur hp.

his curls are cute. haha.

anyway the show was not bad actually. inspirational.
walked to simlim aftrwhich & andrew got his new hp.
V3i.
a phone bestie vans & chris & i had always wanted! haha.
but simlim the ppl attitude sucks lor. totally.
turn-off. dont go der!

went for beef noodles at bugis food court & headed hm already.
suppose to go find nimesh at his parent's shop in arab st but no time ):

ahh. take things slow. yeah its vv slow. haha.
but i myself duno who..
Plan B or C. both of em are such nice guys.
chris, u gotta help me choose!

ok hope i dint miss out bloggin anything abt today...
cos m a lil tired. tend to be lazy to think.

nik so smart today. ask him do things he listened! like so guai abit shock.
haha.
yeah!!! tml i shall fetch him aft his childcare.
hehehehe.*ecxited*
(:
<3 my frds.
NIK.

2007-04-07T11:14:00.000+08:00

i miss you.

thou i dont know you tt well...
u're such a nice person. my first impression. and i wan2 know u better..

okie so my weekends were spent like this:

went to relatives hse for party.
BUT i did not enjoyed it. the hse was overcrowded. in the end jus went der for 20-30mins my mum decided to go hm. GOOD.
met chris at TM, walked ard & went to changi airport.

had lunch/dinner @ fish & co.
ordered passionfruit, grilled calamari rings, fish & chips. YUMMY (:
their service was v gd. 4.5stars (:
thx once agn for the dinner was paid by chris.

walked ard & went hm.

SUN.
suppose to go parkway parade.
change of plans halfway, went to support andrew @ Bukit Gombak stadium.
his track & field competitions.
raining.. but we did not styed for long as chris had to go.
andrew's event only starts at 7+

so when we were at the stadium, just chit chatted, he introduced us to his frds frm track&fd.
he intro-ed me as his good frd! cool. hehe.
so we left at 5+ and tk a cab bac.
lefort industries paid agn.

chris den went to TM, and he bot subway for me.
wa. very nice. i love subway!!!
and tt silly guy go n give me 6 cookies to eat! omg. i ate 2 and was so FULL.
shall save it for tml. see if classmates wan anot.

thx alot chris, u always help me in wadever i nid help in. *angkat* haha.

i cant wait for tml.. WEEXD

*see the scratch wound on his head? ):
but he looks so cute.

2007-04-06T22:40:00.000+08:00

hmms. Good friday.
Public hols. no work! weee. anyway i dont intd to go work tml either.
ahaha. =x

so i slept till abt 10+ 11 today.
played insane aquarium on my uncle's com till i got bored.
slacked ard & started preparing stuffs at 1+ cos miting chris @ 2.

went white sands for lunch.
headed to peninsula afterwhich. saw alan! haha.
we made our jerseys!! its black & white stripped w red words on it.
chris's jersey says: LEFORT 1. mine: LIYIN 3.
thx chris! he sponsered my jersey. heh. cant wait for the soccer match (:

accompany alan while he had his lunch @ BK.

went to funan for awhile & took mrt to bishan to mit andrew.
he wore his so called " stylo-milo" shirt. hahaha.
we ta-bao food frm pastamania & macs to eat at the plygrd near his hse.
cool & fun.
nik was playing ard. running here & der. chris & andrew plyin catching or smtg oso.
haha. well nice day.

andrew walk us bac to the interchange & we took 53 home.
he's a nice guy(:
here's a blur pic of him:

not gg work tml. too tired.
<3 nik & besties!

2007-04-05T23:06:00.000+08:00

i LOVE the COOKIES from subway!

ESP chocolate chip one. and i prefer them chewy. ahhhhhhhh.

the feeling of eating it is so GREAT! hehehe. *cos i had one today*

<3.

and nik is recovering! weee. (:

2007-04-04T22:23:00.000+08:00

i brot nik to the doctors today.

chris cme to help me. like always. haha. thx alotttt buddy(:

cos he had fever for like 4-5 nights thou he was on medication.
its worrying.

BUT PHEW! he is alrte. doc says its just the normal sickness & he shud recover soon(:
i can sense it too.

when doc said nid to do blood test, honestly i already felt like crying.
cos i was afraid he got some disease tt i read on internet tt affects the organs.
and they pricked his finger, squeezed out the blood bit by bit.
he was like in shock n crying. heartpains.
but tts nth la. baby survived an op when he was 3wks old.
he is one brave baby(:

so i saved my money cos if i went to hospital, A&E. it wud be ard 70$.
i spent 69$ at the clinic and bot a thermometer. u know dose type u put in the ear n click?
yeah. my old normal ther lost so i had to get one. might as well invest in the 69$ since its beta.

looks v cute. its a mini model:

went to white sands. some hong kong cafe.
ate there. the main course i say ok. but the sides really not bad.
Ice lemon tea is unique! (:

went hm aft tt. rest & all.
received a call at 7+ frm chris tt he will be coming down with nimesh.

asked him to help me buy dinner also.

chris collected the roses & nimesh gave it to me. (:
ahh its damn damn damn nice.
cos i nv receive so much roses befre.. and this time its frm frds..

its damnn NICE & smell so sweet.. ahhh.

and tts nimesh with the roses. his hair UNwaxed. haha.

befre meeting me they were at the airport, coffeebean.

and u knw wad? cos he was suppose to collect it on tues but collected it a day ltr.
some roses died. suppose to have 20+! wow. tt wud be a BIGBIG bouquet. hehe.

thanks amillion. it really made my day(:

for now im tryin not to stress myself up.
shud i go work tml?

2007-04-03T18:54:00.000+08:00

so hate work.
im garde manger AGAIN. and it sucks. they expect u to do everything correctly becos u did it for wks. im so sick today & had to bear all the nonsence.
i just wish to pon tank for 2 whole wks. ):

its really not easy being a single parent. becos,
u always got to be der for ur child, its like if u dont do it, no one else does it.
recently, m so stressed up.

cause, i've been sick & so is nik. had to bring him to the docs.
i had to get some form frm sch to submit to childcare.
during the nights, aft i eat my medcine i feel so drowsy.
i wan to slp but nik wud always wk up crying cos he is feeling unwell too.
i have to be der to look aft him so i have to wake up halfway.
last 2 nights, i swore i wk up more than 10 times.
m so tired...

im worried, abt the future.
abt his development. cause he doesnt wan2 learn new words.
do i have to bring him to a speech therapist?
if i have to, i have to pon tank work.
or an audiologist? den i have to miss a few days of work agn.
like i've to go polyclinic get referral,den another day go hospital.
so ley chey. but bo bian. nobody cn help me. he is my responsibility.

one can nv know how tough it is to be a single parent unless she/he is one her/himself.
if u had a spouse at least he can be der to support u mentally?
unlike me.. sometyms im scared, im tired. but have no one to lean on.
and i know i cant break down becos i still have Nik..

im nt tryin to sound emo here. haha.
but just to share how i feel.

i really muz be more patient. nik is one tough baby.
if u were my close frds u shud know.
like vanessa & chris, im sure u guys know how hyper he is.
how hard. how tiring it is to look aft him..
how stubborn he is. i've to follow him everywhr.
if i dont let him run, he cries, i let him, he runs away. *dangerous*
sometyms i duno wad to do.
i admit im not gd at handling kids sometimes.
but im tryin to learn. no one taught me. so wad do u expect.
i dont like the way outsiders look at me.

becos nik is always screaming & running abt, they gimme the look " why the mother duno how to discipline"
i duno how. i've tried. m trying. i talk to him nicely, he doesnt listens.
sometyms i beat him he still screams. so sometyms i really feel like breaking down.
like who can help me??

today, i prepared porridge for him.
but he dint wan2 eat it. ah. my efforts. ):

but still, i'll look aft him. as he is my responsibility.
he must not grow up to be like his father. i wud not allow tt.

ahh. for now i shud just try & relax.
guess im really worrying too much.

nik, u mean so much to mummy. (:
hope u get well soon! dont like u to be sick. im so heartpain.
i feel like crying when i see u in pain. i want u to go sch happily.
ouh and i really spent alot of money this time round.
like to childcare & his doc fees. =/
its ok. money can earn bac next tym.
anything for u baby(:

2007-04-02T20:02:00.000+08:00

im so2 sick.!
Nik is sick too.

i've sore throat, flu & cough.
nik has fever, cough & flu.

ahh. im so tired & i've to look aft nik. its so draining. :(
tts why i realli hate to be sick. i cant look aft nik. if i cant, who can?

my doctor fees were $38, nik's was $46. plus cab fare.. tt wud add up to $56?
ahh. money money fly away le.

so sun, chris & nimesh were nice enuf to come visit me with.. pizza hut!
haha. they got me lagsana, smtg i suggested, we had some sides like the star munchies & chix wings.
i got a get well card frm em as well! thx guys.
ouh and tt rainwater mineral water was cool. (:
well its suppose to be a pinic under my blk ;)
\

so sun night i slp really early. but nik wk up umpteen times cause he was feeling horrible.
so i woke up alot2 times in the middle of the night putting him bac to bed/slp.
was super2 tired in the morn but had to bring him to the docs.
and i was suppose to mit Vans!

felt bad cos i had to trouble her to acc me to the doctor's which was like 9am-12nn.
super slow la the doctor.
den fed nik his medicine & headed to shatec cos i nid to get some forms frm sch.
to prove im studyin so i can get mre subsidy frm childcare.
but the dumb2 thing is.. i only can collect it like few days ltr = i nid to go bac sch agn! >.<

while waiting for the bus/on the bus:
*my hp:

*now her hp*:

can someone just tell us whose phone the pics look beta? haha.
bestie thinks my ph is gd (: but hers megapixel much beta!

bus-ed down to orchard.
tried to find yelena @ her workplace but to no avail.
had subway for lunch wit bestie. yummy! eat till so happee(:
took neoprints! the machine v cool lei.

muz change into jap money:

and can infrared to ur hp one! too bad i only figured out hw to use it lst min ):

so im really2 sick now. hmm. hope nik gets well asap.
love u loads darling.(:
*thanksvanessa for today too!

2007-03-31T22:26:00.000+08:00

ok whr shall i start. i need to look at the photos den i cn rmb wad happened..

hmm. nik went for his jab last wk on tues. when he turned 18mths. his final
IMMUNISATION.
and i can say it looked much mre painful compared to the other times.
he was so hyper, running all over the clinic, the nurse cud nt get his actual ht & wt cos he
was like moving & movingx1000000000000.

chris went wit me he pontank work, but for a gd cause k. i relli nid help!

so his estimated ht was 88cm? >.< 2mre cm to ezlink card?! nooooo. pls. he onli 18mths ='(
after the jab, walked to white sands frm the polyclinic.

ate at swensens. yummy.

then we went tm, last min decision..
nik enjoys the rides.. but too exp lah..

here, im elmo, chris is ernie. (:

oh yah, the chef wong always sabotage us one can. tt tym the mashed potato consistency ming ming is good one. he go and pour so much oil, it became like kfc mashed potato.
then he tell me: "next tym befre service time chk mk sure its ok."

i was like "wth? u are the one tt mk it so wet. it was ok all along one lor. wad sia."

ouh and nik uses alot of middle finger.
as in as in he uses it to press stuffs instd of using his index finger.

yepp.

nik's first day of sch *childcare* was on friday, 30th march.
his sch uniforms:

i cuden slp well the night befre n wk up at 6am. did the preparation & changed him.
he looked gd in the uniform!! but cuden get a clear pic of him.. my digi cam sucks!
i wan anti shock...

rise & shine!!

i accompanied him at sch for 1hr 30mins. headed to mit chris to watch TMNT @ PS.
nimesh & andrew cud nt mk it.
ahh TMNT is nice la. way cool. (: 4 stars..
walked to city hall den to suntec to tk neoprints. then frm suntec walk to work at fast spd.
was super tired aft tt & aft work.

on fri, onli 5 ppl came la. and der was like 54pax. everyone rush like kee siao. but FUN!
hehe. i think if i next tym lidat everyday i will kee siao one.

some pics i took random..

aft work. snap snap in toilet.

the choc eclairs frm polar. nt bad.

elmo next to me(:

i bot one for nik. who knows, my mum bot one too.

ohohoh i saw zhiwei on the mrt. so funi la he. still rmb the date we watch the movie like 1yr plus ago. cos the second day aft we watched it i gave birth & he cuden believe it.
cos my tummy was small.
i myself cuden believe it when my waters broke was so scared cos realli small tummy.
who knows out came a huge baby. hehe.

so today i planned to go work. had some nice all time fav scallop congee @ crystal jade.
then headed to work when i feel so sick like suddenly. den tot tt since nik is sick i might as well dont go work.
went to frd's hse instd. nice hse, 3 storey bangolow. nice rm. neat. wished my rm was half as neat!

went out awhile wif frds n headed hm to tk care of my baby.
i love u nik.
i can see u love me too and im glad. thou der are one thousand worries abt u on my mind,
everytime i think abt u, i feel all beta. (:

thx for the concern frd. esps vans, weiqi, yum, chris & nimesh.

looking forward to the picnic tml!! downstairs my blk organised by chris & nimesh. hahaha. (;
COOL.

2007-03-28T10:55:00.000+08:00

i hate my mother la. she is like so LAZY.
she cnt wait for nik to go childcare, so she can just rest at home.
last tym alwys give excuses she cnt work cos nid to look aft nik. now she will say nid to look aft my sis.
like wth lor. mummy why u so lazy! go and get a job can?!
if u looked aft nik, i can save abt $500 every mth.

im not working ley. thou the money is not i earn one. its for me frm my dad ok.
my savings. if i saved it i'll have lots of money in future.
give birth oso i pay. nik's surgary oso i pay. wad have u bot for him befre? not much.
now every mth i have to fork out 500$ myself and u just rest at home. i see liao oso sian.

sighs. wad to do. shitty family. hate my stepdad & he's gonna be released in July.

argh. i wan2 get out of this life. i just wan my own family & i'll nv be like my mum.

2007-03-25T19:52:00.000+08:00

i went sentosa today for a drink! ahhhh.
haha.
supposed to go play golf but cancelled cos too far.
wanted to eat @ delifrance but cudent find it, went to some food court beside underwater world, u know the chix rice is like ard $9!
so just had a drink, snapple (:

walked alotalotalot. but one thing i enjoyed was, CABLECAR! :))
thx chris, u helped me alot. :)

i tot it was gonna be scary but it was not. the scenary is v nice.
i dont have much pics. chris nv send me! onli got 2.

met nimesh at beach station.
ouh i saw shihui & huining while walking along the beach der. hahas.
tk care girls~

nth much to say. bot a pink cap & blue fan at some souvenior shop below the HUGE merlion.
v nice. shall use it when im gg to the zoo or park in future. (:

chubby:)

and for some reason, all my pics taken were not so nice. ):
my son!

had carls JR at Vivocity, walked ard & went bac.
i got nik & my passport pics ready already! (:

my face got ALOT of moles leh. tsktsk. hahahaha.

the two best frds:

"liyin is pretty but abit fat" hahaha. i agree..
But why sir so straightforward :(
but i think is not abit is quite can. zzz.
haha. tata.

2007-03-25T00:48:00.000+08:00

i've been stayin out late for the past few days.
as in, aft work i dont go hm straightaway.

like on weds, went to airport with chris & nimesh stated in previous entries.
on thurs, went for late dinner @ LJS with chris, tk bus hm, jam. reached hm 12.

today, sat night, met nimesh. chris was with us too.
we all walked to raffles place frm our workplace, did his stuffs at the OUB cash deposit machine.
walked bac to city hall to find somewhr to eat but all closed can!
so just bot drinks at 7-11. headed for mrt.
had macs @ white sands. chit chat. took bus, reach hm 12.20.

cos usu nik wud be aslp by then so it doesnt matter i reach home 1130 or 1230.
if he's awake den i'll be rushing home.

ouh yea. childcare teacher called me to pay up next wk.
and nik can start sch in APR!! wee. so excited for him.
i wan2 send him to sch on first day eh..

sentosa tml. hope it doesnt rain. haha.
its gonna be a happy day tml. bestie. frd. my boy. me (:

2007-03-24T10:21:00.000+08:00

Its finally sat. my last day working for the week.
oh forgotten to upload this pic,
which we took at rosette when we had the farewell dinner w mr lau.

ok and no mre pictures for tis post cos im really LAZY & tired.

I just read bestie's blog, and i dint know so much had happened to her ):
But i guess even if she called me i cuden accompany her cos i had to work.
sighs, i REALLY wish i can be with her during her ups & downs becos she's my BESTEST frd.
i want to be der for her, share her sorrows/happiness. laugh tgt abt our chitchats. eat, shop tgt.
but i cant. argh. i miss her so much too.
but glad tt she is ok now.
nvm, shall catch up when she is feelin beta.

this wk & next wk im stuck in afternoon shift. argh. its slackier but the whole day like gone.

so ytd at work was quite alrte.
but then got this guy named ye in service staff asked for my num.
damn funny can. even the chef know & told me. waaaaaaaaaaa. embarrasing. all disturbing me.
so made frds with him. he found me cute, but then the service staff got mre cute & pretty girls leh =/
haha. cute.

nik's blueblack is nt improving eh. i tried to help him ease it but its still so bad.
:(
and i dread gg to work becos he wud cry aft i go :(
and my heart aches. so wish i can acc him the whole day. so wish i do not hav to leave him at all.

anyway gtg. bathe nik.
tk care guys!

2007-03-23T10:13:00.000+08:00

feel so sleepy nowadays. as in when i just wk up.
i wake up so much ltr den last time when i worked aft shift.
use to wk up at 9-1030am. now earliest oso 10+ =/

so work on tues was FUN.
during free time we wud all slack in the locker rm. *has aircon*, off the lights.
and tell ghost stories. many interesting expriences my frds have.
our rice for lunch was charcoal fried rice(: they make it grey by using squid ink.
its nice!

chris,me & hairul:

work ended abit lter & chris wan2 tk bus *exp518*
bot our fav drinks while walking to the bus stop:
(: recommended!

work on weds&thurs was FUN as while the same routines, ghost stories& stuff.

but aft work on thurs, chris decided to go to the airport for supper etc.
asked nimesh along. here's nimesh:

so tt's like only the 4th time i met him. haha. was such a conincidence we saw him on bus 36.

went to coffeebean for drinks & cakes(:

tt was wad chris & i had some brownie, nimesh had cheesecake & we all gt the same drink.

its was really cool. my first time hanging out in the airport so late With frds(:
cant wait for SUN! sentosa (:
tk a cab home at abt 1145, chris's treat. chatted ahwhile on9 ltr wit him & nimesh.

usu when i reach hm nik wud be sleepin soundly already. so m realli lookin forward to sun, so i can bring nik out & play (:
i love u!

2007-03-19T21:32:00.000+08:00

ah i feel so bad la.
cos i dint go for work at charcoal and went to work for fullerton instd.
BUTBUTBUT!
i had so much fun & got paid ok. beta den free labour over at Charcoal. zz.
so wkin at fullerton i had $6/hr & its my FIRST time working la!
so happee (:
fullerton is B-E-A-Utiful(:

chris snapped this frm behind..

and der is this super not so nice pic of me aft work*haha*:

*oh we wear black pants. (: we get to go outside the banquet area.
the food looks really yummy! esp the chocos. SUPER pretty. <3!

nice working with the kitchen crew.
der was:
Noel, winner of star chef. nice guy, teached me stuff(:
Junyang, some shatec graduate oso. super funny. askin ppl abt their fetish's durin work >.<
Shawn, quiet but nice. asked me if i scared hot & offered me to cold kit.
Mike, some nice guy also lah. lol.

More jobs offers on Weds! but i cannot so bad always ponteng.

Last weekend.......
SAT.
stayed hme the whole day till 6pm i went to mit chris & headed to the airport.
Nik ran everywhr n he was SUPER CUTE!
he's too fast for me to tk any pics while walking.

After walking alot, settled down. him with his croc shoes. special one the holes are like mickey.

had popeye's for dinner:

see nik took my fries n ate em all. ha ha.

my food! yummy tum yums!

ok u see the escalator im on? its dose flat ones.

nik ran all the way down/up like 2-3 times. and he wasnt afraid, dint wan me to hold me.
he's brave! realli. for a 17month old.

thx chris! for helpin out whenever i nid help.

*my BEST PAL in class* & for the last tym we R NOT COUPLE. go until fullerton oso gt ppl say!!
why????? ha ha. we just hang out tgt all the time wad.

took MRT n walked hm frm interchange.

SUN.
woke up late cos tired. met friend at 2pm.
headed to funan. had swensens, his treat.
look at notti notti nik!!!!!!! so angry. i mean me.

cheeky!

had fish & chips *all-time fav* , cookie submit for dessert.
choco coated cherry, (:

headed to robinsons & bot my black pants!! i like it. hehe.

oh yah saw this boy his hair & face v cute like korean!!

hmm. see nik hair soo long le. cant realli see la but i tried my best.

n now u try i tried to push it up n down.

i took a pic wit baby! but i cut myself out agn ):

AHHH!

Lastly. somebody tell me this one can pass as passport pic ma? no rte??
so hard to tk myself. :'(!

OHOHOH is this guy hot wit his hot car? hehehehe.

2007-03-17T14:19:00.000+08:00

here to updatin cos im feelin lonely.
not bored. lonely.
in nid of some accompany and intimacy. sighs.

FRI.
last day at work for the wk cos i've got sat & sun OFF.
lunch was rather busy. i was the only garde manger & so many orders.
like 5orders of sandwich, 7-8 set appetiziers, caesar salad, beach bar salad etc.
phew.

aft work went for lunch and started Q-ing for donus. oh man the Q..

and i was at the v end? took me 2 full hrs jus to buy some donuts. >.<
imagine just standing der for 2 hrs.!
luckily i've got my frd to acc me. He even asked me to go hm first while he sent me the donuts aft he bot em. but its ok. (:
in the end we each got a dozen, took cab home.

well tot of visiting sq with the donuts but then it was v late already.

SAT.
wk up & did usual stuffs. everyone went out at ard noon leavin nik & i at home.
nth much to do.
Nik v cute, went to the kitchen and brot the broom all the way to my rm & tried to swp the floor!

shall go out ltr at night. to think abt stuffs. to relax myself.
i love gg to the airport thou sometimes the quietness makes me feel empty. =/
mks me think of the past. and agn, mks me feel lonely.
but nik is gg so i think he's gg run all ard. very gd place to bring him to. haha!

as for sun, might be meetin chris & his frds.
hope i get to mk some new frds. its been long since i made a frd.
(:

i guess its nv worth it, since wad u said tt night to me.
'even thou she cheated, bla bla bla'

im act surprised i could still cool down n talk to u nicely. hmm.
styin as frds is gd.
i duno if im happy, but u will be happier.
and i really wan2 forget u cos i've really had enuf.

Thx for all ur care & concern vanessa, christopher, yelena & kenny. so far only afew know.
(:

2007-03-15T22:14:00.000+08:00

oh how cud i forget. (:
enjoy peeps (:
its the song i find cute. hehehehe. yodeling!
someone yodel for me pls! <3.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BkdgCspZEBY

2007-03-15T18:59:00.000+08:00

WEDS was my precious offday.
and i decided to spent it with my fav girl! Bestie vanessa. heh.
went to her hse early in the morn, we had breakfast, then had lunch at 9am. lols!
cause we got nth to do. but enjoyed the chit chats alot. yeah.

left for PS, on the way saw many ppl. as in from totally disgusting - cute - handsome.
she keep telling me the chef v cute la. but he uncle uncle liaos. haha.
and got this cute guy! haha. he looked at me abit & it made my day. lol. kidding la.

bot tics for "I'm a cyborg but tts ok" @ 12.15.
durin the free time we totally ransacked all the shops in PS looking for a getwellcard & flowers.
finally we found n decided to get aft the movie lo.

befre the show.. TMNT!:

this korean guy frm duno which movie is cute too!:

toilet:

*more pics in bestie's blog.

the movie v cute, funny but NOT v nice la. lols. 2-2.5stars.
btw the song on my blog is by rain- with you. *im not alone* (:
the whole cinema only 4 ppl including us. went to buy roses! for sq cos he gt chix pox.
got him a get well card too.

visited him for bt 30mins under his void deck & we headed bac hm.
i was suppose to rush hm & leave for rosette cos got dinner for Mr lau.
He's leaving the sch! M gg to miss him so much. he's my fav trainer..

enjoyed my day alot becos of my best friend! love her loads. she is a superbestfrd(:

Chris met me & we took a Merz cab to rosette. got jam on the way >.<
everyone kip disturbin chris as the father. tsktsk. cos he hlp me. *thanks alot chris*
the dinner was alrte la. i dont like the soup. sucks. i only mainly enjoyed the ribeye steak.
the fats super nice!!! =x sat next to ojer, opp chris n near alan.
nik was v notti! kept screaming. =/ so hard for me to look aft him.
dinner ended ard 9+, chris along wit me & nik walked to cine 7 tk a cab frm der.
He sent me hm & went hm.

ah. had arguement at night. He said things tt really hurted me deep.
and m wondering is it worth it to do things for him anymre. then cried alot.

got super swollen eyes on thurs morn & kenny realised!
but he's nice to mk me breakfast, chix mayo sandwich along with orange juice. thx pal! (:

bot orchids & sushi & mixed fruits for him today, aft i pass him i sat for 5mins & went hm.
okie, my post is getting too wordy. haha! tk care all!

I love rain's yodel (((:

2007-03-13T20:39:00.000+08:00

haven been updating. agn.
well the wk ends i was tired & lazy.
mon & tues was tiring for me.

SAT.
Bestie christopher's bd. planned to celebrate at Sentosa.
I gave him a black pendant in the shape of a small ring with the words "friends" v nice & cool.
From perlini's (:
He fetched nik & i at ard 11am. Reached Vivo at 12+ i think.

my new shoes tt i wore tt day:

His fren Nimesh & gf was late. so bot the ticks & waited at the top floor.

Nik FINALLY walking on his own *ALOT* outside!!
He ran all over the 3rd floor la. happened der was this WonderBaby contest.
The camera man go n vid nik i think. hehe. nik looked so cutee! (((:

does he look a lil eurasian? hmms.. maybe his dad is superman. hes growin super fast la! >.<

Had sakae at sentosa & walked ard.

A grp pic:

got this toddler kip sayang nik la. i think she wanted to kiss/hug him lor!
but nik not interested =/

It was fun! went bck to west plaza & chris accompanied me to NTUC.
I bot alot alot of stuffs. frm drinks to dairy products to ingredients for nik's porridge.

SUN.
Shengquan came over to my hse to visit nik.
i cooked breakfast for him! haha. hpe he enjoyed it.
chit chatted & he accompanied me for the day. thx (:

went tm at night.
nik played & walked ard at Toys R Us..
he was so notti & cheeky! when i carried him he dont let me carry, sreamed & cried till my ears nearly went deaf & everyone was looking at me >.<

then, i brot him for a ride. $1. haha.

walked hm afterwhich.

MON.
so many orders of sandwich at work la.
rush like mad. zzz.
after work met shengquan, he treated me to haagen daz macadamia nut icecream! <<3.
my fav (: yummylicious. haha. watched the dota com @ funan & headed hm.

had dinner wit chris at cafe cartel @ TM at night, met derek.
my main course was some pan fried macaroni. i dont like it lor & the soup sucks.
only enjoyed eating their bread & butter & this!

only enjoyed eating their bread & butter & this!

everyone shud see how nik & i get tgt, our actions are v funny. haha.
i luff sometyms too when i get mad at him. tt cheeky baby. i love him!

TUES.
work was abit tensed. kenny nv come, zm ran off aft lunch.
leavin me! the only 1 & only garde manger. =/
can manage la but really quite tensed & stressed.

found out sq got chicken pops. haha. tts hw he spell it. funny.
means i cant mit him for 2 wks? like so sianzz.
we planned to tk long bus ride on weds morn. well nvm. i can always visit him.
just hope i dont get the pops cos i haven got it befre ;)

ok la lazy to blog le. hehe. wud be gg to bestie vans hse tml early in the morn 6 oclock!
wooo. cyborg! and den maybe visit shengquan.(:
nites!

2007-03-09T17:54:00.000+08:00

Work was alright.
Felt alil beta as today was my last day for the week.

Stupid Wong shouted at me to kip the olive oil. wtf lor.
1) the olive oil is not even i tk out one.
2) i was plating my appetizier, and its the first dish to go out. i so bz stil insisted i go kip the oil first.

wadever lah.

nth much to say abt work. aft work went to raffles with best frd chris.
had lunch. so coincidentally met his friend nimesh.

all went TM tgt. i went to pay my bill & headed to WS to buy dinner for mum & sis.

while listening to geqian by Jaychou on the bus. i almost cried.
well i missed him the same.

last night, i had a very bad nightmare.
i dream of losing u or smtg i cnt rmb. when i woke up in the middle of the nite felt so scared.
i wanted to msg you. i wanted to call u.
but. like wads the point....
ah. thinking of it can mk me cry.

nobody msged me like the whole of today. guess tts gonna be for the next few mths. maybe yrs.
i duno.

Felt beta when i reached home and saw nik. iloveu boy!.

im sosososo tired. but lookin forward to tml.
i hope i can just feel happy & not think abt you for a day, thou tts impossible.

Thx for the care besties. You're the only closer persons i have.
Im just a loner. but as long i have my besties & nik. i shud be alrte for the moment...

2007-03-08T19:42:00.000+08:00

& tell me, when is the day.
Tt i think of you, and i smile back at our memories.
when, when can i stop crying for you.
its been 2 days. and im still crying when i miss u badly.

2007-03-08T19:19:00.000+08:00

My day was alright..

Im still feelin super horrible. My eyes were SUPER puffy in the morn.
so in front of my classmates i just pretended to be really sleepy and pretended to slp while waiting for mr wong to arrive.

Had my looney partner Ziming talking his nonsence so i finally cheered up alil.
well he cud tell i was unhappy. so i tried my best to show tt im ok....
Other classmates were all complaining abt Charcoal & stuffs. Was slackin in the locker rm half sleeping half listening to songs on my mp3 during break.

Nth much to say really just tt the day was quite busy. had 13pax for breakfast and 52pax for lunch.
So i kinda stopped thinking abt him for tt few hrs.

Met chris aft work, we went shopping. i bot a top from zara & a nail polish frm thefaceshop.
made chris tried the colours by painting it on his fingers. haha.
He made my day beta, with his jokes & he said he wud bring nik & i out on his bd!
Tts this sat. we're gg sentosa! His treats and everything. hehe. cnt wait.

we also had this pact: tt is i were to be attachted within a month from today, i have to pay him 100SG dollars. and if im still single, he pay me 100SG.

WOW. Im feeling rich already. ahha.

I loved him so much. I'd def be single for this mth. and who knows. scully i can be for like 1yr?
Im missing him so bad.
really.

alrites. hope nik have fun on sat!
tk cares to all my friends out der!

2007-03-07T17:36:00.000+08:00

what happened was..

I broke up with beloved shengquan.
Reason being like. He says he's useless. But its just something like he cnt provide for me & nik.

He cnt give us happiness etc. He cnt quit smoking.
He doesnt have the will to study.

I still love him as much. But if he thinks this is a better way then i'll just go with it.

Im very glad tt it did not end bad, we still close friends atm.
We both know wad we both wants. He wants me to be happy & promise him to find a better guy.

I really dont wan to end it. Im still SUPER heartbroken.
Its really bad la. Im very heartbroken. ='(

But sometimes im sick of feelin tired. i dont like to be sleepy & tired all the time.
sometyms i wish i can have a guy tt cn support the family. so i can b a housewife.

But its never easy, to find a gd guy. Like for my case, he has to be able to support nik & i, older den me, caring. i do nid alot of care and attention. becos im very tired frm everything.
his parents must be able to acc us and all.

Thankyou sq, for all u've done. u're someone special to me. always rmbed.
rmb this, i had never ever wanted this to happen tis way. sigh.
for the last tym, i love you. (:

LOVE. dont find me. dont mk me fall in love with the wrong guy every single time.
i always break up with my bf becos of stupid certain reasons tt i nv wished for it to happen.

i can wait and i believe the next time, i will find my devoted other half.

for the meantime, i nid time. lots of time. to heal my wounds.
i need nik.
i need my besties. i wnt to be happy and nv think of it again.

thx vanessa, thx chris, thx yelena.
i love u all.
thx nik. mummmy will stay strong. becos no matter wad, u're still the one boy i love the most(:

2007-03-02T00:05:00.001+08:00

ok. so production ended late on weds.
till abt 7.15!

the whole day, did lotsa mise-en-place (mee-zam-plus) = preparation work. for SAFTI event on Fri.

Once i reached. help to trim one thousand prawns.
Forgot wad else i did. only rmb doin the salmon roses. look mre like rolls.
wit kenny,ziming & Chileong. Mohsin helped out abit too.
was really tiring la!

see. we did like 3 HUGE trays can. one tray gt 250 or was it 260.
i was doin the counting. den nvm lei. u know wad.

see the next picture:

notice tt there are two shades of colour for the salmon? one darker n one lighter.
the teacher, told me to separate the two colours into 2 respective trays only when i've completed two trays of it already.
>.< so argh!

But overall still had some fun while working la.

and dint get to mit bf cos too late. dint wan him to reach hm late oso.

BUT ended like earlier on thurs. so happee. (((:
went TM with bf, went NTUC and spent like an hr der?

okok i gtg.
chatting on the ph wit bf & Ragnarok-ing.

this is such a boring post rte?
so is tml gona be, a boring day ))):
tatas. i miss nik((:

2007-02-27T22:46:00.000+08:00

im so dead tired.
partly due to productions.

mon was 8.30am-6.15pm.
tues abt 8.30-4pm.

well its not THAT tiring la just tt aft i cme back i still cnt rest n everything.

But i get alil muscle aches frm cutting things like:

Duno how many KG of onions sliced..

pic not so clear rte? cos i donwan to get caught tkin pics of onions. ppl might think im mad.
so this is how big the container is..

we also did slicing of mushrooms..

so manymany.. 10kg?

tts nt all the mushrm, other classmates did like ard another 10kg but shitake mushrms..
when we fried em all tgt with the onions. using the BIG WOK. had to do 8 rounds befre we cleared.
I do one time only my whole arm ache la. V tiring ley! =(

and of cos this are just SOME of the things we do at production. we do all the washing up etc oso.
manymanymany. sobs.

hmm.. managed to snap a pic of kenny slping. He can also slp on demand.. as long as he closes his eyes...

and the other day, bf tot this is bagua. when its just some seaweed product. lols.

saw this cute chocos at the OG at chinatown tt day! nice!
i think only the 68% n 72% nice. the others is TOO bitter for me!

Nik's so cute. always anyhow kiss ppl one. as long as u lying down he'll come to kiss u!
(:
So cute. i miss him everyday at work ):

ok. sleepy. update agn soon. bye all!